Facts


 

 Morning y'all. Today I am not sure how long this blurb is going to be, but I need to put this out into the universe, as it doesn't seem to be too clear to some people in my life. So PLEASE PAY ATTENTION!!!

I have been in a relationship for quite a while, which ended on very messed up terms. I needed some change, as I could not fall into old patterns. I need the time now to find myself again, to love myself again and to become the person I am inside. I was never one to take crap from people. I never used to allow people to have any type of control over me... I have been robbed of my self-respect; my generosity and unending love has been taken for granted for years and I needed to stop that cycle.

That being said, people need to respect what I am saying and what I NEED right now. I have repeatedly told people that I am in NO position to get together with someone at this point. I am NOT even entertaining any type of relationship because a. its not fair to the new person to carry the bullshit that someone else laid on me. b. I am not a floozy and will not be a bed jumper; besides, who would honestly want to be with someone like that? c. I am loyal to a fault. I love with everything in me. I respect whoever my partner is and I would do everything to protect them and devote myself solely to them. It really is that simple.

So I am actually not ASKING this anymore... I am TELLING you, stop asking me out. Stop pushing yourself on me. Stop implying that you would be a better man for me... right now its the opposite for me, I am no good for anyone while I am healing and rediscovering everything I lost through some very trying relationships.

I am not going to bash past partners, nor am I going to reveal their names.. that's not my kinda deal. I just know that I am on my own path of enlightenment and self-discovery. I need to go back to my spiritual side and just stick to those who I am closest to... those who have been there and will be there through everything. 

I cannot reiterate this enough... I am NOT going to jump into another relationship nor am I going to fall back into old patterns. I know those are just words and "proof is in the pudding" as many of us who have been in crappy or even abusive relationships, return to the same situation because it is what we know, it is what we are comfortable with... that is NOT me. I have been through way too much crap and survived it all (on my own), and this is just one more bump in the road of my life. 

I won't just survive... I will conquer and be the warrior everyone insists that I am. Stay safe everyone and have a beautiful day.

Stay blessed lovies. 

Original Post May 29, 2023

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