Rant of the Day
I wasn't sure I would have the strength to do any writing tonight, but I am desperately trying to keep my mind occupied. Is it working? Not so much!!! So here I am, maybe you'll be able to decipher what I am saying... As I have mentioned before I have to go to the cancer clinic and figure out what is the best form of treatment for me, and that scares the shit out of me; but what threw me for a loop was when a friend mentioned the appointment is in 8 days. WTF?!! I know that I lose spaces in time but not a full two weeks. This revelation has put me into full panic mode... chest pains, puking, shakes... you name it, it's happening. I just don't know how I am going to cope with all of this. I am sooooo overwhelmed with it all. I guess the scariest thing right now is the unknown. Am I going to need chemo and radiation? Am I going to need surgery on my stomach?? I got an appt already booked with an orthopedic surgeon who is going to deal with my hip dysplasia, so that'...