Good Morning Y'All

I really wasn't sure if i was going to be able to sit today and do any writing, but my mind is going bonkers on endless possibilities or scenarios we could potentially be facing over the next while. I don't want to bore you all with the drabby details of medical crap... so let's chat about some good things in our lives.

I have been on a rather extensive journey, as of late. The last 6 months, life has changed drastically for me. A relationship that I was positive was my "forever", ended badly and I left town. I had been extensively hurt but the thing that was scaring everyone, was that I was and am way too calm for what happened. The sad reality is... I am used to this. It just seemed like one more blip in the road.

So since April, I have been rediscovering myself, expressing myself and healing myself. I made a promise to myself that I would give myself 13 months to do that before I'd even entertain the idea of dating again. In between truly healing my heart and starting to enjoy life with those who have been loyal, I am slowly writing the book I always promised my favourite (Late) Uncle, I would write it.

I didn't want to make this a depressing post. I thought it would be nice to let the tribe know, that I have held on and BROKEN the cycle. I really wasn't sure I'd have the backbone to rise up again, and start living... but my best friend, my brothers, my sisters, my kids and grandkids kept me going. I am past the rage, the hurt; as far as I'm concerned he could walk right in front of me on the street and I wouldn't even acknowledge him; for truly, who was he really???

I take great joy in that the universe has bestowed upon me, and now that I'm almost 50, maybe it's time to live MY life... I know my kids keep telling me that. They always say how helpful I am and I'm too good to people who don't deserve it. I do things out of the goodness of my heart, so if I have cut you off or invited you in; then i consider you part of our tribe.

this is about it for this lil blurb. I hope life finds you well... Stay safe, Stay warm, Be well, Be blessed.

Blessed Be my beautiful lovies

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

FFS I Matter Too!!!

Image
Good evening lovies. I have been struggling with something that is very close to my heart. I truly do not know where to proceed next. I'm going to try and make a very long story as simple as I can... I was adopted at 5months of age, (well apprehended at 5 months, adopted at 5 years). There is something that adoptees yearn for all their lives... WHY?  I know for me there were many questions and on my 19th birthday it appeared I was going to get those answers when I met the woman who birthed me. Unfortunately, I was sorely mistaken!!! Years went by, and I allowed this woman to have control over certain things that were weighing heavily on my heart, She held the one piece of the puzzle that felt missing from my heart... who my biological father was?!! I, one day decided that I wasn't going to allow another person have that kind of control over me... EVER!!! I left the situation alone. I struggled deeply. I was literally at war with myself. on this topic. In a way, I felt guilty th...
Read more

It's a Hide Under the Covers Kinda Day

Image
Page 14 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. I really, really hope your day is going better than mine!!! Sorry, woke up at the asscrack of dawn, as I had a doctor's appointment this morning.  Thankfully it was with my family doctor; appointments with him are fairly painless.  Today, however; things kinda went sideways.  I am usually in and out within 10 mins for these appts, but today? I was there for over 45 minutes. Of course, it didn't help that I was puking maroon blood in the office. I know, I don't share a lot of my medical nor really personal stuff on here, but just so you're aware, this has been happening daily since end of May/beginning of June last year. I am what they call an "anemic blood clotter" which I didn't think was possible, but apparently it runs on the paternal side of my family. Anyways, that was the main focus of my visit after that. My stomach medication is being switched AGAIN, this time I am being set up with an antibiotic (which is cra...
Read more

Tis the Season.... Why I Am Proud of Local Tattoo Shop!!!

Image
  Page 307 of 366. Good Afternoon Lovies. I am not sure how long this blurb is going to be; as it seems to be a topic I have been beating to death this past year. I know it is the time of the year where we switch from Halloween/Samhain into Thanksgiving (in the US) to Yule/Christmas season.  I hate pointing out this fact, but people seem to feel like Christmas time is the only time of the year that they should be charitable...  Is it out of guilt that you are donating, or is it because you genuinely feel you should be helping people??? I AM sort of calling you out because this is NOT the only time of the year that the homeless, or the downtrodden need help. I cannot stand that this is around the only time you will see non-stop commercials/ads or billboards that are asking for help with various charities; also the time we see commercials about driving under the influence. WHY IS THAT??? Driving under the influence is a year-long problem... I will not get into details about...
Read more