So It's Hump Day... What a Day!!!

 

Hi everyone. I hope that the universe finds you in good health and good cheer. I know for me, personally, the past few weeks have been very challenging; even making me extremely erratic. I know how terrible it was for my friends, my brothers and mi amor; but sometimes it just happened and although i am very apologetic to everyone I am hurting, they need to understand that it IS mental health issue and I do not intentionally want to be that way... I truly don't.

Anyways, that's not what this blurb is about. I wanna discuss my day with you all...

To tell you that it's been a busy day is putting it mildly. I got up at 6:30 AM to go do my grocery shopping... the store opens at 7AM, and I know that is the least busy time to be there, and since I have social anxiety, and just don't like people in general I had to do it this way.

I then had an episode where I fell again. The falls are getting more frequent and my weeble wobbling has just gotten progressively worse. I can not tell you what is cauing it because with all my medical conditions, it could be any one of them. It is truly getting scary at times, but I do my best, put on the good face and pretend that I am fine. You know how it goes. I am soo used to dealing with stuff on my own, so I just don't bother people about my ailments; I am stubborn that way.

Now down to the nitty gritty... I have been busy trying to make this apartment my home again after the kids literally ran it into the ground.  I was about to remove somethings from the apartment and I scrubbed the crap out of the nasty ass fridge. No joke, it was disgusting; I even had to use a blade to get all the crap stuck to the ground. Why??? Why must people be so nasty? I only managed to get it clean until I puked (Thanks to the million things I am allergic to).

Now this evening got a lil interesting, someone from my past had to come by and retrieve some of his things that were left behind. I was very concerned about this meeting because I hadn't seen him in 8 months. Anyways, it went well, thank you to a friend who stayed with me through the visit, because I had such bad anxiety, I wanted to jump out of my own skin.

I also got to talk to my beloved, which hasn't happened in a few days, becaue, you know, life gets in the way sometimes. I was just grateful to hear his voice and literally have him laughing out loud over me using the word "eh"... well get what? I am Canadian, eh!!! LOL Sorry, I had to throw that in there.

I am now laying in bed struggling with my sugar levels, I was in ketoacidosis for the past 18 months and now I am the polar opposite. My numbers drop so low that I am fortunate that I am not in a coman, or worse. It seems Odin isn't ready for me and I got some work to do here on this earthly plane.

With that being said, I would like to wish you all a good night. Stay safe. Stay warm. Be loved and Be blessed. Until we meet again, I wish you well.

Good night my lovies... Stay blessed.