Clarification

This is page 2 of 366. Now what I am going to write here will take a lot of people by surprise; not because I am being secretive, but because I was enjoying us and just the way things were and didn't want any labels. Man, I cannot stand that word. Why do we need labels???

I am not sure how these words are going to come out, or how they will be perceived, but circumstances have made it necessary to clarify a thing, or two.

Y'all know that I have been writing a lot about being alone; which is the truth but I need to be specific (Bro, you know exactly what I mean when I say this because I cannot handle when people are not very specific); and if you choose to not clarify, I am going to make sure that I don't do whatever is asked of me. LOL

Yes, I am physically here, living alone in my place, but that does not mean that my heart doesn't lie elsewhere. I have someone in my life that I (ugh I am gonna say "that word" again), that I LOVE talking to and growing with. I can say that I love him...  He's an incredibly beautiful soul; and although we are not physically together at this present moment, doesn't mean that its not in the works. 

You may ask, why this is now being revealed??? It's really simple, without revealing his name, I want the world to know that I am alone, NOT lonely. I want him to know that he isn't some lil dirty secret that should remain behind closed doors... He is worth so much than that, and I really hope he reads this and truly grasps what he means to me... no matter the rough patches, or the fits that spew words we only wish we could take back.

This is the process of being with someone... life lessons and personal growth. I am not one of those chicks that will hold things like that over his head at a later date. What is truly the point? We all "fumble" or say "dumb shyt", and I will tell you what I have said to someone else I know...

This person asked how someone can literally see the hurt in your eyes, but still claim to love you? My response was this... We, as humans, always hurt the people we love most because you are our safe space. We are not intentionally doing or saying something because our goal is to hurt you... we are saying/doing it because no one wants to feel vulnerable.

Those, my Lovies, are simple facts!!! Hey, if they can be with you through the shittiest of times, then they fully deserve to see the best version of you. Let me end this here.

Have a fantabulous day Lovies.

~Phoenix