I Could Feel Myself Slipping

Page 29 of 366. Hi y'all. I just wanted to start this one on a sweeter note as the rest of this blurb may go pretty dark, fairly quick.

As you have read in previous entries, today is a crap day for me... actually most of January is a shitshow for me; but I don't really wanna talk about Teddybear and his death date anniversary today... I wrote my heart out, and then I spent some time listening to music that normally makes me tear up.

 Don't get it twisted, I DID cry a little bit today, but as he would have wanted, I dusted myself off and carried on with the day. It just feels insane to me that we are going on 15 years without the big lug... Time flies, yet seems to stand still. If that makes any sense.

Anyways, this entry is about those who continue to attempt to put drama and bullshit into my life. I do not understand why people have to be this way... like I am so over the crap they are pulling. I am pretty sure we are grown ass adults, its seriously time to cut the cord and close this fkn chapter. Again, I will not be spewing names, but these idiots know who they are and they need to stop the slander and defamation of character shit before they actually will have to face the consequences for their words.

I have been extremely patient with these people, but not any more. They have now stepped it up and have started contacting people who I consider friends, and some of them are complete strangers to them. They are telling people things that are 100% untrue and I have not said a word otherwise. 

I have continued to choose to rise above them, but honestly, if they want to continue with the shit flinging... they are truly going to FAFO!!! There is only so much kindness and love someone can give before they become enraged and rabid. Yah, I am referring to me becoming rabid, like a dog... like the bitch I can be!!!

I DO want to make it very clear, that I have not once have to defend the crap they are saying because those who know me, know what is going on without a word being said. I am just tired of people like them... like why can't you just fuck off and live your own life??? I have being doing me, rebuilding the place that you dumbfucks destroyed, after you ungrateful bitches trashed my home, thrown out most of my appliances, and not to be weird, but where TF are all my dishes??? 

Sorry, I have to giggle because I am just tired of it all. I have my physical, mental and spiritual health to cope with and I have zero interest in having toxic people in my life... so if you see me cutting you off, then I consider you toxic and cannot have you around me, as there is no seat at my table for you ;)

I really do want to say one thing though... I love how you are making yourselves look stupid, your lies are catching up with you; as you cannot even keep those straight. My words have not changed in the slightest. I DO adore the fact that I am being called a "narcissist" after I opened my home to you when YOU got evicted. I had to buy a bed to sleep in my dining room when I came back to my own home because you guys were too ignorant to give me my own space back.

 You trashed my furniture, allowed my place to become infested with bugs and mice... and you call me a "narcissist"??? You told people I threw your furniture out? Ummmm, the dumbasses that believe you should look at photos of my place, long before you stayed there... they would see that all the furniture in my home was MINE, not yours. You guys lost your shit when you got evicted... facts are facts CHILDREN!!!

Ummm maybe you should get yourselves an education before you use words that are too big for you to comprehend. You told people I threw you and your family onto the streets, leaving you homeless... HMMMMM, the fact that you told a complete stranger that you didn't need the weights you left at my house because at the condo you're living in, you have an indoor gym and indoor swimming pool. So again, you're homeless huh???

I won't go completely in the dirt with you guys and continue to correct the lies you have spread, but I will give some sage advice to those who are listening to your bullshit... Look up court papers before you come at me... the lies they are telling you will be disproven if you'd open your fucking eyes and actually do the research yourself... That's all I am gonna say.. besides this... You want to come at me... Come at me. Stop being keyboard warriors and say what you say behind your screen to my face, dumb bitch!!!

Wow... that felt fucking fantastic!!! I have been holding this in for a long time... so how about you guys suck on BoBo and fuck off. You're a joke and the truth is unfolding as we speak... it's your own words that will come back to bite you in the ass.

Have a great day lovies... I know I am feeling better day after day, it's amazing how much life can improve when you remove the toxicity from it. That being said, thank you to all you fabulous souls who are in my life. Thank you for knowing the truth without a word exchanged. I will apologize in advance as these tools will continue to try to sway people away from me. As for that, I know one thing... You never lose friends... you only lose those who were enemies in disguise.

Stay safe. Stay warm. Be well. Be blessed. ML&R