So Pissed Off!!!

 

Good Morning my Lovies. I hope you all had a restful night. I can honestly say, if it wasn't for my meds, I wouldn't have slept at all. Yesterday was a fairly decent day, although I did have my moments of uncertainty and wavered on the line between a complete melt down, or keep a brave face and hope it'll get better... WELLLLLLL, the evening ended in kind of a shitshow - not anyone's fault, but I'll explain what happened.

I was sitting on the couch with my friend, hey, let's just call her my daughter because that is how our friendship is. She is the greatest person who, like me, is often misunderstood. She is a sweet, caring, beautiful soul who I am very privileged to have in my life. 

As I was saying, the later part of the evening is when shit kinda went sideways. She was preparing to go home when I put my hand on the wall behind the couch, only to find that the wall was wet and my floor was soaked. It got me extremely agitated and my anxiety went through the roof. The maintenance man, who is fairly new working here, had just fixed the wall that had been exposed for the past couple years when the previous super intendents (If you can even call them that), was fixing a leak under my kitchen sink and decided to go right through the kitchen wall and through my living room wall. That hole was there for over 2 years, and I cannot tell you what kinda crap came out of the holes in the walls.

I am babbling again, but you needed the background to understand how and why I am so bloody upset. The new supers and maintenance have been phenomenal, and with the help of friends, I have been able to reclaim my apartment fully as mine again. My friend and I had been discussing what colours I wanted to paint the walls and BOOM, the very wall that was repaired (He did a great job too), is destroyed again. Like WTF?!! These landlords need to get their act together because I am getting tired of having to watch my apartment fall apart because of their lack of repairing things, sometimes things that should have been fixed over a decade ago.

I think all of us deserve to be living in a safe, clean spaces, and maybe we should unite and go against the owners of this place because all they have really done since they bought the place was continue to jack up the rent, for new tenants it is nearly impossible to sustain the bullshit price for a place in the ghetto. They want rent increases, they're attempting to void all the leases of those of us who are grandfathered in, even saying they don't care that our leases include specific things, like parking, they now want to charge us for parking... Let me remind you, there is no assigned parking spots, the spaces are various sizes and there is no handicap parking, let's not even discuss the illegal handicap ramp at the parking lot.

This day and age is going to be the death of many people. Rent has become inaccessible, in the way that no one can afford to pay $2000+ for an apartment these days. I understand that to them it is a business, but these spaces are OUR homes; so YES, it is personal. I am so sickened by how the world exchanged humanity for the almighty dollar.

Anyways, I should end this blurb before I completely lose my shyt on people who don't deserve it... at least, I am making comfort food for dinner, in this damp weather... yuppp, it's raining, and in the + degrees; but I feel we should enjoy some chili tonight for dinner. I hope you all have a better day than my evening was, which was much more my anxiety than anything else.

Stay safe. Stay warm. Be well. Be loved. Have a blessed day my Lovies.