Another Blank Page

 

Page 35 of 366. Good Morning Lovies. I once again seemed to have acquired a blank page in my book, this year. I do have a valid reason for it, albeit it's been a little scary, for sure.

On Friday, (page 33), I had a bit of a scare. I am going to write about it because I feel it is something very important for people to be aware of. It was a usual day for me, other than I had a doctor's appt in the morning; other than that, things seemed to be going fairly smoothly, other than me being in quite a bit of pain from a pinched nerve, going from one of my fingers, all the way up my arm, into my neck and down my entire one side of my back... It has been excruciating pain, to the point that I decided I was going to try some "oil" to ease it a little bit... UMMMM, not so much!!!

I really don't remember at what time I took it, nor how I managed to make dinner, all while in such a "stupor"... I'd like to refer it as. I don't remember sitting down to dinner, although I know what time it was, because I had messaged a friend, (a sister to me). I had either finished dinner or was close to it, when I was feeling completely funky. I am not sure how or why I was able to keep my wits about me, but I messaged my sister and my friends who live in the building and asked them to come over because I didn't feel right, to the point that I was hallucinating. I was full on seizing when they came in, and 911 was called. 

I don't recall who was all there, nor how I was able to communicate. I knew at some points I was able to verbalize what was going on, but other times, I couldn't speak at all. I know that I did sign to EMTs (I am assuming), that they needed to listen to my sister because she was the one who knew most about my medical conditions, and she knows my wishes. It was decided that I would not go to the hospital because it was clearly an allergic reaction to whatever I took.

I don't remember too much, I recall recognizing my sister and saying I knew her. I then recall how the room went dark from the outside, inwards... if that makes sense. I really couldn't understand why I was feeling like this because I don't have any medications in my home at all, ever since my overdose, I don't keep anything that can harm me within my home. Not that I am currently suicidal nor feeling hopeless... it was actually a reasonably good week, mentally and emotionally; compared to the week before; so I was very confused as to what had happened.

I guess my only advice on this situation is this... even though things may be 100% safe for one, there is absolutely no guarantee that it is safe for another... Time and time again, I learn this the hard way. I have so many allergies, I am at the point that I wonder if I am allergic to myself LOL Just kidding... I needed some humour in this rather dark moment.

Hope y'all have a fantastic day. The sun is shining here and I can hear some bikes riding by. I hope they all get to enjoy it. I won't jinx things, but I believe my friends are right when they say that here, in Ontario, the weather has decided to skip winter completely. All in all, most people are loving that, but me... I am a winter baby through and through, I prefer the beautiful, calming, peaceful feeling of a snowfall/snowstorm... even though I hate people being out on the roads when it gets super messy and slippery.

Stay safe. Stay warm. Be well. Be blessed. Stay well, my lovies. Blessed Be!!!