Family ~ WTF is That???

Page 50 of 366. WOW Are we already this far into 2024??? Time seems to go so quickly, yet sooooo slow; if that even makes sense. I think January had to of been 3 years wrapped into 31 days. We only have 10 more days of February too... insanity at it's best I guess!!!

Today's topic is one that hits me deep in the "feels"; but before I begin writing what my feelings and thoughts are on days like today, I will reiterate that I still believe in... 

"you can't create the storm, then complain about the rain!!!"

You will understand why I am adding that sage advice into this blurb in a bit. I just want to say that to those of you who have family, I hope you have a great time and actually use this time to be present with your families. This holiday would be completely wasted if you're all glued to electronics with headphones on... then you may as well be at work. Simply put!!! Personally, after the hustle and bustle of Christmas/Yule and a dreadfully long January, a day set with the family is exactly what society needs. 

I used to love this date, and as always, I would usually make a massive meal, not just for my blood family, but also for those who lived around me... it was kind of a "door open" kinda day like I made Sundays to be.

This brings me to the part about WHY I detest this day...

I am not in contact with my (adopted) family, at all. It only brings heartache when I think of how much of an outcast I am in the family, simply for not having the same belief system as them. Yes, they are what I deem "ultra Christian", and I clearly am not. I don't believe in any organized religion. I wear the label of Pagan with pride. I am a Witch... plain and simple. Our views will never mesh, and although I don't bring up my views with them, they constantly try to drill how evil I am and how I need to change my ways. I need to read the Bible. I need to go to church... 

For the life of me, I could not understand how sitting on hard ass wooden pews a few times a week would make me a better Christian. My church is in nature.... it IS nature and there is no one who could recreate that inside some building. At the end of the day, I walked away from that mentality because all religions are man-made and you cannot convince me otherwise. I am well versed with the Bible, but if people would actually sit back for a second, they'd know how absurd it is to think that what they are reading is remotely what God said. 

Enough of the religious stuff, that's not the main reason for this post...

I do want to take a moment and mention my Mum (Dianne) and my sister, Marianne... two of the very few in my biological family I even consider using the work "family" with. I full heartedly love them.

Let's touch on the line I said earlier that I strongly believe to be very sage advice.

I sit alone in my place today because of things that happened between me and my daughter. So NO I am NOT crying, nor feeling lonely over that because I was a part of creating the storm, so I cannot bitch about the rain... BUT let me tell you something. DO I regret what happened??? Absolutely NOT!!! 

I am sure some of you are shaking your heads in disbelief, but I have zero regrets for standing tall in my convictions and reclaiming my own life... no matter what it cost me. Yes, it may have cost me seeing my daughter and my grandbabies... but if that was the cost of making sure I was never disrespected by being spat on, or shoved around, or being taken advantage of by ungrateful people, than I did the only thing that could be done. Sorry, not sorry!!!

So on this family day... whatever your circumstances... I am thinking of you all and hope it ends up being an enjoyable day; no matter who you're with. I, unfortunately, am not with my brothers, sisters, my best friends nor my beloved... (The ones I truly consider as my famILY) which breaks me. I can only hope that next year, my home will be filled with the laughter and love that are now just a distant echo.

Stay safe. Stay warm. Be well. Be blessed. Much love and respect, my Lovies