When Does it End???

Hi y'all.I am having a bit of a rough day today, so I figured, why not write some more stuff out... at least this way, I am getting it off my chest and will hopefully be able to reflect on my writing at times when I need reminders. I have already shared with my loved ones, so this won't come as a shock to them. I am not taking this as bad news... but it is getting rather tiresome that I need to see, once again, a new specialist. I have a huge list of specialists here, so I cannot really complain (much) about our healthcare here in Canada... except for the insane wait times in the ER... BUT...

Here is my list of specialists... I obviously have 1. my family doctor. 2. therapist 3. psychiatrist. 4. cardiologist. 5. neurologist (for my IIH). 6. neurologist (for my seizures) 7. hepatologist. 8. urologist 9 & 10. gastroenterologist. 11. optometrist. 12. neuro-ophthalmologist 13. hematologist 13. oncologist 14. rheumatologist. 15. dietician 16. SA therapist... I think that may be all of them, but I am pretty sure I am missing a few. Welcome to my shyt show!!!

I know this seems excessive to some, but it is pretty much the norm for me, for at least the past 15 years. As I have spoken of it before, you would all know that I have mental health issues and you know that I have a few physical ailments ~ some of which are a direct cause of the very thing that is supposed to help heal us... man-made medication!!! My kidneys are at 50%. My liver is 4 times the size it is supposed to be. I have scarred lungs, issues with my heart (mostly peracarditis). I have diabetes. I have fibromyalgia. I have osteoarthritis. My stomach is a whole other story I am not going to get into right now. I have ulcers... The list is endless; including battles I care not to share in this blurb.

I am not writing this out of pity or sympathy, because you honestly know where you can shove those sentiments!!! I write this mostly so people will be aware that not all serious ailments are on the outside. Many of us who suffer from these ailments or others, are soooooo frustrated with the mentality that if you cannot see it; it therefore doesn't exist. HORSESHIT!!!

It's only February 12th and this feels like the longest year ever.

I am going to end this blurb with reminding you all, that you are all wanted and needed in this world. None of you deserve to be, nor feel, less than amazing. I'd like to wish you all a beautiful night and an even better day tomorrow. I'd say this is my last post for tonight, but I have a sneaky suspicion that I have at least one more to get off my chest... but we'll see!!!

Stay safe. Stay warm. Be well. Be blessed. ML&R Lovies

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