You Outta Know

Hey Lovies. I am just gonna dive right into this one. I guess it's life's experiences that have taught me that some of the best things in our life are meant to be sacred, personal, and not to share with the world; because there will always be jealousy, vengeance, anger and bitterness when you reveal that you are happy or are very content with how your life is going... this is one of those moments.

I AM going to reiterate the words I wrote yesterday, because they are completely from my soul. You know who you are, and I am one hundred percent with you on the privacy thing and anonymity, but I am NOT going to deny that my heart is taken.

When you came into my life, it was a very challenging time for me; as you well know. You told me that certain things and people were not good for me. I have HEARD those words before but don't think I actually ever LISTENED to them. You told me I deserved someone good and that I was someone special... still working on that part, but in my heart of hearts, I DO believe you.

You literally fell into my life, in a place neither of us really belonged (I know you'll get the pun on this one....) Kinda like a fallen angel. You came to my defense when someone was being a complete asshole to me. You defended me, a complete stranger, without hesitation. It was a moment that is etched on my soul. You were polite, respectful and we clicked from day one. As I tell you, you have a beautiful mind and I cherish our talks. There is nothing sexier to me, than someone who I can have an intellectual conversation with, and learn things I may not have understood before.

To many, this part may sound dumb, but I am saying it anyways, because I feel like the world needs to know. You do not berate me for scoff when I am having a difficult day; instead you try to understand what is going on in this twisted head of mine. You don't lecture me, or snap on me for misspeaking or for miscommunication... Many may feel that this should be a given, but trust me when I say it's a rarity and very admirable. (I may be a bit biased at this point).

You deserve props because I am not an easy woman to handle. I need a lot of patience and kindness; something you have given me and continue to show me that I am worth it all. Sure, I have my flaws, but I am a good person as those flaws don't define me. This might be the most important sentence you will ever hear from me... YOU HAVE GIVEN ME SAFETY IN FULL EXPRESSION, WITHOUT CONSEQUENCES!!! 

As you know, I have not led an easy life, and yah, I have been in some pretty shady and shitty places; so trusting you and feeling safe with you are HUGE things in my life. I appreciate you in ways I will never be able to express verbally. I thank you for who you are, and I hope you don't change a thing; because you are perfectly imperfect to me. You are the very definition of a man and I am honoured and blessed to have you in my life and by my side.

And with that, I need to end this blurb as I don't want to start being a sappy, blubbering idiot.

 ~831

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