First Official Day of Spring???

 

Page 80 of 366. Are we really this far into the year already??? It has been an interesting day, to say the least. I am kind of all over the place with my emotions; but I am doing okay. I made a nice dinner, Portuguese crusted chicken thighs with some pasta, garlic bread and I made some lemon cupcakes. 

Yes, I know most of that isn't healthy for me... but to be honest, I eat like a bird. I had maybe half a chicken thigh, 2 spoons of pasta and a piece of garlic bread... You would be proud, I didn't touch a single cupcake, although they sure smelled yummy!!!

I am going to settle in for the night. I have already taken my medications and plan on chillaxing the rest of the night. I just hope this back pain eases soon... I know my kidney is acting "stupid" but this feels more like it's the osteo acting up, or maybe it's simply another flare up of my fibro... either way, the pain sucks!!!

It may have been a difficult day, moreso emotionally than anything else; but I continue to be very grateful for the people in my life and for the time I have left on this earthly plane. All I gotta say is this...

'THE HEART WANTS WHAT THE HEART WANTS!!!"

There is no getting around it, except to go through it... feel all the emotions. If any of this is making sense... I guess, I am focusing on my beliefs that people always come into our lives for a reason, season or moment; there are no coincidences. Everything needs to be left up to the Universe... we got to trust that!!!

Everything happens because of fate, and when I say don't give up or you can't give up because I need you... I mean it. It may be selfish of me, but you need to understand you are not just needed and wanted... You are loved... wholly, souly and completely. 

I don't love you for just your looks, although you are very handsome. I don't love you for just your voice, although you sometimes are the only voice of reason I can hear. I don't love you for money or financial gain... I'd rather live in a shoebox and have what is real, rather than have all the money in the world and no one "real" around me. 

I won't say you complete me, because that is just a fairytale people use to make someone feel good. No one can complete another person. You are you, and only you; and honestly, I wouldn't have you any other way... What did I say to you today???

"YOU ARE PERFECTLY IMPERFECT!!!"

And that has got to be the greatest compliment I could ever hear, share, or say. I just want you to know that I not only listen to you.. I HEAR you. I am grateful that the lines of communication always stay open; even under difficult circumstances. 

We never leave things left unsaid, no matter how hard it can be to hear things in the moment... this is why I treasure you sooooo much. You, like me, do not like to mince words... Its a precious trait in people. You want to know what is even better than that??? The comprehension our souls share. We don't just talk until we are blue in the face... or feel like we are wasting breathe... we talk to understand and comprehend the other's point of view. Do you know how rare that is???

I wish each and every one of you the most blessed of days. Stay safe. Stay warm/cool. Be well. Be loved. Blessed Be my Lovies, from this plane, to the next, and even the one after that too. 

~Phoenix

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