Food For Thought!!!

Page 68 of 366. Good evening my lovies. I gave been struggling all day with what I wanted to write about today; even now I am not sure. I will let my fingers do the talking and where this blurb goes, is where it goes.

I am probably going to have to re-read most of my entries this week because I feel like I have been "foggy" all week, seriously missing many gaps of time. I am sure it has to do with me starting my anti-seizure meds, on top of the medication I am taking for my arm, shoulder, neck and back... I am giving it one more week to get me settled or I am going to stop at least the "nerve pain" medication.

I am kind of in a funk when it comes to my personal life. I know where I want to be, and with my health being so uncertain, I don't know if I will ever attain the status where I was before. I am a writer, and I am great at my work... it's a matter of me being able to sit and do this for hours on end...

I am going to just be raw here and tell you, being in the position I am in is an eternal battle. I long to be back in the working world. I loved working for real estate. I loved studying criminal law. I pick up languages like it's nothing. Not to toot my own horn, but I know I am a fantastic writer and I have certain goals I am determined to obtain, I just have to be patient, I guess!!!

For those of you, who know me really well. I mean are in my life and really know and understand me; this part will make a lot of sense...

I am waiting for the scoffing to stop because I know there are people in this world who truly cannot open their minds to what I am about to say. I had to have someone die (and I died with them), in order for me to live and accept what are gifts, and that they are not to remain hidden. 

I know there are a lot of nay-sayers, and that is okay. I am not requiring you to understand me nor what I am talking about, but you need to respect it, as I respect your views too.

Without divulging too much detail, I am what people refer to as a "medium" or "sensitive", although I prefer not to have labels because everyone has their own niche; sometimes having several gifts. People are infatuated with it, but they fear what they do not know nor understand. Many times I have heard that it is a gift, but I also remind people it is also a curse... 

I guess why this is on my mind is because a friend posted something about people experiencing deja vu, you know... people who have this moment where they feel like they have experienced this moment before... I am in agreement that this is a very real phenomenon... Some say it is your "consciousness" that has been there possibly thousands of years.. I like to call it a "soul" but that's just a tomato/tomatoe thing... A brilliant question or thought was brought up... what if that supposed light we see when we pass... you know.... that light at the end of the tunnel is just another rebirth of our soul???

We don't recall our past life because the first 3 years of your new life, everything you have learned is being erased; but there seems to be a glitch in the system, which leaves us with these moments of deja vu; but that leads to the question of... all the memories we are creating, including those deja vu moments... will be deja vu in you next life on the next plane or dimension???

Food for thought. Definitely thought provoking!!!

~Phoenix

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