The Zombie Weekend ~ IYKYK

 

Page 90 of 366. Are we really this far into the craziest year of our lives??? I cannot explain all the feels I am feeling these days. I truly have no words for them, as I cannot even identify all of them. Between the celestial events, the religious and spiritual events, and personal events (my son's 24th birthday, is tomorrow), happening so close together... I am complete mess. I am pretty sure I lost a day or so this week; so forgive me if I am in a bit of a brainfog.

I gotta admit, that throughout it all, I have been able to keep myself pretty busy on reviewing cases that I think would make a great part of my crime blog. It may sound morbid to some, but I have always been fascinated with crimes and the judicial system; so to write about gruesome cases, seems pretty normal to me. 

I like to know the ins and outs of the case, as well as the trial proceedings with the sentencing, and aftermath. It does sadden me that once a trial that received huge publicity is soon forgotten. Those victims will never have a voice again; they are not meant to be forgotten... so I will offer my own voice to retell their tale and remind people what truly happened, so that we can continue to change the judicial rulings and laws, so that no other family/loved ones need to deal with hearing how little their loved one's life was worth to the system. Does that make sense???

As for the rest of my life? I am going with the flow; routine medical appointments, making sure I actually take my meds every day and not just wing it because I don't want to take them... other than my insulin... that one remains a struggle with me BIG TIME!!! I have, what feels like, a billion appointments, ALL the time; but I am trying to get my doctor and medical team to focus on one problem/ailment at a time. I get overwhelmed with all the poking and proding they are doing and I just feel like shutting the damn door and just suffer in silence.

Other than that, life has been peaches. I haven't had to deal with negative bullshit, coming in the form of that goof and my daughter... and any other negative shyt that is brought up gets tossed away as quickly as it arrives at my front door. I have ZERO tolerance for drama, and if you have an opinion of me... that's your perogative. I don't need to hear it; simply because what you think of me, is not my business. 

I live my life, I have love. I have my cherished ones and I have my tribe... That is my pride and joy!!! For the first time, in a very long time, I realize and SEE who is there for me, and who only comes around when it is convenient for them... at the end of the day, it is their loss when they see me slamming the door behind their asses... and maybe just add a lil salt into the mix :)

I hope you all have a fantastic weekend, so far the weather is holding out here, so hope those who have waited for this weather are taking advantage of it and getting a ride or two in. Please stay safe. Stay warm. Be well. Be loved... but most of all, Be Blessed my Lovies.

~Phoenix

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