In a Funky, Weird Mood This Morning

 

Page 109 of 366. Good Morning my Lovies. It's Thor's Day... one more day and it is the weekend... You can do this!!! I know our government is fking us all pretty hard with this massive price jump for fuel, but I really hope that doesn't put a damper on your weekend.

I am sitting here wondering which crime should I do a deep dive into today. I hate that I have been slacking on both my blogs, but my health has decided to throw me for a loop and have been in bed for quite some time. I was determined to get up today and at least sit on the couch and write..

I guess you could say I have a lot on my mind. I am in the process of rejoining Ancestry DNA. I have uploaded all my DNA profile so I can submit it to another site when I am ready to dig deeper. I still struggle with the decision of doing it in the first place. We only did it so I could find my biological father and it ended up being very frustrating because there were lies that came out and I was conflicted about it all; but then I found out I had another brother and a sister... My FIRST biological sister. So, for that, I am grateful as her and I do speak on occasion and we've fully accepted each other as family, although some people don't like it.

I don't know if this drive in me that wants to know everything I can about my family is a natural thing for an adopted person, or if it's just the instinct in me that NEEDS to know as much as I can. I have always been a "seeker", if that makes sense. The woman who spat me out, is useless when it comes to information; and I don't have a relationship with her at all. I don't speak to any of my biological brothers, and even if things were to change, I don't think I even want to know any of them. I am more interested in the history of the family, down to our roots... what were my ancestors like??? That kind of thing...

I DO know that "gifts' have been given from generation to generation. I won't go into excessive detail about that, but with a background solely, Scottish, Irish and English, you can just guess what "gifts" I am talking about. Yah, some people call them gifts, other times I feel like they are a curse; but I have been "blessed" with them anyways.

And with that, I am off to discover another murder case to write about in the other blog. Stay safe. Stay cool/warm. Be well. Be blessed... but most of all... BE LOVED!!!

~Phoenix

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