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A new week is upon us... a new day has begun and I already feel overwhelmed. No, I am not complaining. I had two medical appointments this morning; my only issue is these appointments are like 5 minutes each, so why can't things just be dealt with over the phone??? I thought since COVID, doctors and specialists didn't care if the appt was over the phone due to lack of privacy... that's fallen out the window a LONG time ago.

So we are going to have to monitor things even more closely now and once I am done these medications I already have, they are either switching them completely, or starting me on a bigger regiment... Have I mentioned how much I HATE medication???

I guess, in reality, I should not complaint too much. I am thankful that my family physician is VERY accessible. I would much rather have all natural things to heal me with, but I am blessed that there IS medication to keep my numbers fairly level. I really couldn't imagine living in a third world country, where these things are few and far between.

I really can't get over how fast time is slipping by. I am not sad about it, ina sense that with each day there is growth... Emotionally, Mentally... not so much physically because I am a shitshow with that today. If I was smart, I would have taken my walker with me this morning, but I kinda brainfarted while I was dealing with the anxiety of the whole thing.

Anxiety is such a tricky thing... Like, now that the appointments are over with, I am a lot calmer and kind of giggle at myself for being so anxious in the first place; but when the next appt comes up, I have the same anxiety again. It's all a vicious cycle. Although I should give myself props because I actually set foot out of my apartment, on my own, sat outside on my own and went to the appointment... for those of you who know me, you understand what I am saying... for those of you who don't, you're very lucky!!!

I am going to end this on a high note... It is a beautiful day outside, almost could sit on the balcony and work on my crime blog... which has me very confuzzled and deep in the dark rabbit hole on this one case. I had to stop the one that affected me personally, because even though it happened 30 years ago, it is still very fresh in my mind. But this case my beloved suggested... HOLY HANNAH PEOPLE!!! This case is going to throw you for a loop. Just please bear with me, as I dig through everything and figure out how I am going to put this all down on paper (so to speak).

I hope you all have an amazing day, even though it is only Monday... I fully expected to hear some of y'all ripping by later when you're done work. Please stay safe. stay warm/cool, be well and be blessed. Much love to all my Lovies.

~Phoenix