UGGGH, It's Monday AGAIN

Page 92 of 366. Good Morning Lovies. I hope you all had a great long weekend, no matter what you celebrate... I, myself, find all calendars highly prejudice, but who am I to say anything different. I mean, they print Christian, Muslim and Jewish holidays; but not the Pagan ones what originated most of modern religions??? Make that make sense!!!

I guess you can say I am in an mood of indifference today. It is supposed to be "April Fool's Day" to the world, but to those of us who know the actual meaning of this day... it's kind of a running inside joke that certain people have zero clue the origins of such a day... c'est la vie!!!

I feel like I have slacked off on my writing, as well as all things witchy. Am I the only one who has been, and continues to feel completely "off"??? I am fighting every instinct for crawling back into bed and just resting.

I would like to say, I am in a calm, but puzzling mood today. I had a decent night, chatting with beloved until I literally passed out after 11pm. I am a little mad at myself, because I have a strict thing that I have had for years... always say good night to the ones you love and care about; but because of my medications, I kinda just fall asleep whenever they take me to dreamland and I never get the chance to give a proper good night. 

Breaking my own rules is very sucky and I feel hypocritical about doing it. 

See, I only have a few rules I am a stickler for. First, one is never leave the house angry. If you can't resolve the disagreement in the moment, go to other parts of the house; but never leave. I have already lost a spouse, while we slept, he slipped away. 

Second, I don't care where my partner or loved one is going. (I mean I care, but its not necessary to give me full details), just let me know you arrived safe. If you're travelling back from wherever you are, I only ask you let me know you're back on the road and let me know when you're home, if my home isn't the final destination. I don't need details again. I just like knowing that people are safe. Doesn't matter if it is a simple text and I am sleeping. It's knowing you're all safe.

Third, if you are a couple... "DEFEND IN PUBLIC & CORRECT IN PRIVATE!!!" This one is a huge one to me. See, if you correct, or disrespect your partner in public, or you have a simple disagreement in public; it shows others that there are cracks (we all know relationships are never perfect). Always show a united front in public, and deal with your own personal issues or disagreements in private. Maybe it sounds a lil ol school, but I believe firmly in these "rules".

I mean, think about it... when you're in a relationship, wouldn't life be boring as hell if you agreed on everything??? Just because you love someone, doesn't mean they have to believe or do everything that you want to do, and vice versa. Life is all one big lesson. I say the same about relationships; having a partner who has different views and ideas than you, it doesn't mean you won't work; it simply means you can learn some beautiful things from each other. You need to have enough love and respect for each other to be willing to open your mind and heart to something new or different than what you always knew.

I don't know how I ended up on this topic, but since I am on it; I'd like to add that there are some things that are necessary for the foundation of any relationship and that is your core belief system. I like to think that people of all religions and beliefs could be together and it would work out fine, but in reality, it rarely does, especially if there are children involved. It is kind of hard to raise children in a home when parents are Christian and Pagan (just for an example). It just cannot work, at least if you are true to yourself.

Anyways, I am babbling at this point because its a mute point as children are grown and out of the house; it's just me in this household.  Sorry for my verbal diarrhea today. Stay safe. Stay wamr. Be well and Be blessed. Much love to all you beautiful Lovies.

~Phoenix