Weekend Woes

 

Page 118 of 366. Good Day everyone. I hope you are all able to enjoy the outdoors today; in spite of a little rain. I really don't like what is going on with me and my body lately... we definitely are NOT friends, right now!!! 

I hate saying it, but I have been "off" since a few days before the eclipse and haven't been right since. I have had non-stop headaches, bleeding nose (repeatedly), and a lil blood coming out of my one ear again... FML!!!

My sugars are completely out of whack, which isn't excessively unusual for me; but people are seeing it in my face. I am constantly hot, and forever drained. I will keep saying this... 

I don't think I have diabetes at all; I think it has to do more with my kidney function (or lack thereof), and my liver that doesn't function properly. I am supposed to take fast acting insulin three times a day, then my slow release at nighttime, plus take ozempic once a week (I had doctor reduce the amount because Ozempic kicks my ass for at least 24 to 48 hours after I take it.) 

The odd thing is, when I take my insulin, my sugars go higher... it doesn't make sense and I am honestly exhausted from trying to get the medical professionals to do every fkn test in the world, so that we have actual answers. I am tired of being tired. I am sick of being sick... but then again, if there were a day I would wake without pain... I'd honestly think I was dead!!!

The biggest thing that has been happening the past day and a half now, is my body is vibrating. (Joke all you want, but it is true). I don't have the shakes, although I get the occasional tremor. I have been having memory lapses and let's not talk about how I am stuttering and struggling to even say words these days. 

This vibrating is not extremely painful, but it is very bothersome. I am pretty sure I had a seizure in my sleep the other night, (yes, I get them a lot)... it's like I am stuck in a brainfog when it comes to getting my words out. Do you have any idea how troubling and embarrassed I feel not being able to speak without losing my train of thought, or unable to say the word that is in my head??? 

Anyways, I didn't want this ti turn into a pity party. I am only expressing what I have been dealing with the past little while. I am having extreme difficulty getting out of bed lately, and when I do... I am not up for long. This does concern me, because the last time I was feeling like this, my daughter found me dead on my bedroom floor. I mean, dead DEAD!!! Please just send out positive vibes and hope this is not another one of my episodes... Each one gets worse and keeps me in the hospital longer every time... When I say, shyt isn't good... I mean it!!!

Please everyone stay safe. Stay warm/cool. Be well. Be blessed. Most of all, be loved my Lovies.

~Phoenix

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