I Just Need to Vent!!!

Good Evening Lovies. I lay here in my hospital bed, staring at the dreary walls really getting stuck in my head. If it wasn't for the date and hospital name written on the white board, I'd have no clue of both things. 
I DO know, I've had some rocking nurses while stuck on the GI floor. One in particular was able to keep my spirits up, especially since we share the same "sisterhood" in the craft... We have similar upbringing, with not such great mothers (for lack of a better word). We laughed... I cried... we laughed some more.
As I posted earlier today, I had lost 42% of my hemoglobin in less than 2 days... we're cutting it close for a blood transfusion... as if that wasn't enough to deal with...
I don't think I've shared that I'm getting blood tested every other hour because, let's face it, my body is fkd. 
Through the most recent testing, it's showing that my potassium is dangerously low. I have NO clue what that means, but the nurse said that's showing my heart is being affected by all of this shyt... then to just add a kicker (hey, why not at this point???)... 
The chest xrays they did a couple nights ago, finally brought in their results today. My left lung is slightly collapsed, but it's only 14mm; and I've been reassured that I'm okay, as long as I don't go to 36mm because that will require intubation.
Honestly, if it's not one thing, it's something else.
Now, remember in my last post, I felt pretty good because my mom (adopted) told me she loved me after I told her my health news. She NEVER says those words to me. 
I SHOULD'VE KNOWN BETTER!!!
When I got the x-ray results, I called my parents to give them an update. She seemed genuinely interested, in spite of the way she answered the phone... asking what she can do for me??? 
EXCUSE ME?!! I let the snide remarks slide and I sent her the name of what is going on with me so she could look it up in her medical book... something she asked for. I didn't even know she had a book like that. We hung up fairly quick because I was fuming and I didn't want to say something I couldn't take back. 
This woman called me back about 15 minutes later, saying that my dad feels if I wanna know what it is, I should Google it myself... Wait... WHAT??? The convo ended and I was left dumbfounded... 
I can't and shouldn't be dealing with this at all right now. I think we should just leave the body where it is.  
That's about all folks. I hope you have a safe. Stay blessed. Be well Be 
~Phoenix 

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