It's Exploratory Day ~ Yayyyyy Me!!!

Page 142 of 366. Good Morning Y'all. Don't ask why I'm up at this ungodly hour... I know why; but it is what it is. 
I'm busy, struggling to chug the other half of this 4L jug of PegLyte. Let's just say, I am very grateful they gave it a half decent flavour. 
I am only sending out positive vibes and thoughts that they find something... good, or bad... at least so we can focus on one ailment at a time. We all know, I'm not lucky in that department AT ALL!!! 
When it comes to health, I can never just have a "cold"... for me, that really sucks and annoys tf out of me when people bitch about them having a cold; sorry, the "woe is me" horseshit doesn't fly with me!!! (There ARE some people that are exceptions to this rule, but you know what I'm sayin).
I'm getting off track already... Fair warning!!! My mind is very scattered today. I wish it was only the fear of having a procedure done... something that's very routine to most people; but 
a) no simple procedure is "simple" for me (look at gall bladder surgery, I was in hospital for just over 2 MONTHS!!!) 
b) the surgeon performing the procedure today, is the same one who overdosed me during the last "simple procedure" he had done on me (April 18, 2023).
c) I am doing this alone. Not in the sense that I don't have a great support system... it's that I don't have anyone physically here with me. (STOP!!! I am NOT laying a guilt trip on anyone). 
This is what I'm used to. I've dealt with my health issues alone most of my life; although it's scary at moments, I sometimes feel better knowing there's no one waiting for me after recovery. 
I DO want to thank all those who have reached out and continue to be here. I may occasionally forget to tell y'all, but you're all incredibly beautiful souls, and it doesn't go unnoticed!!!
I should probably sign off. I'm babbling at this point. I hope you all have a brilliant Tuesday. I will write when I get a chance. Catch ya on the flipside. Much love.

~Phoenix

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