It's FriYay... How's Your Wknd Lookin???

 

Page 152 of 366. Hi all. I hope Friday treated you well and you're all in for a good weekend. Me??? Well, after going to an appointment I did NOT want to go to and really found out why I felt that way before I went.... kinda blew my day out of the water. 

Yes, I am trying to stay positive, but some days that seems like an impossible task. I am extremely thankful for those that are keeping me afloat these days... I don't think any of them truly know the power their love and courage holds!!!

I really don't want this to be a downer post, so I am going to kinda dwell on what is, not what could be or what would be... I am going to continue to be thankful for all the good things and people in my life. I may not be what people say is "money rich" but I am beyond wealthy when it comes to the solid people who surround me.

I have a chick who has been in my life for a good 11 years who is the most solid person I have ever met. She continues to show, time after time, what it is to be a sister and that loyalty is unwavering... she truly is inspirational; just don't tell her that because she'd scoff it off or probably tell you to "fk off!!!" 

I have my best friend who has always been, currently is and always will be the most loyal man that has ever been in my life. When I say I would catch a bullet for this man, I mean that with every beat of my heart. I don't need to explain shyt we have been through nor what we've supported each other through... all I got to say is that nothing nor anyone will ever take his place in my life.

Then we have my brothers... what do I say about them, that I haven't already stated. They are just as loyal as my sister and my best friend. As you can see, LOYALTY is a massive thing in my life... it's kinda like your word, if you don't have that, you have nothing!!! My brothers are my famILY for a reason. You cannot put a price on the commitment and relationship we have with each other. I can trust them with my life completely. I know they "Got my 6!!!" and vice versa. FamILY to me, doesn't equal blood by any means; because if it was to count blood, I would only consider one of my siblings family, and that is my bio-sister, and I only met her a couple years back!!!

We now come to my beloved... He continues to amaze me. He is the type of man who has no clue how amazing he is; and to me, it is just insane that he is in his 40s and he cannot see it. I think what shocks me is how many amazing people there are out there who don't know their self-worth or their own awesomeness because some insignificant being decided their insecurities were more important to place on someone than give the credit where it was due. 

Again, I am sad that people like him had to deal with such ignorance, but I feel deep in my soul, all of the pain and suffering we have endured is what led us to exactly where we are today... and for that, I will never be sorry about. It sounds harsh, but he knows exactly what I am talking about. 

I am going to finish off this entry with a little celebration of my own as, even though it was only a preseason game, I am super stoked that my double blues... the Toronto Argonauts beat the Hamilton Pussycats (err TiCats) 25 to 14... this pleases me greatly because I will ALWAYS consider Toronto my hometown, even though I will NEVER root for their hockey team (unless of course it is the only option I have, and only for my sister's sake). To understand why I writing about this, you need to understand the MASSIVE rivalry between Toronto and Hamilton when it comes to the CFL... but I am sure I will be talking a lot more about it throughout the season, which officially kicks off this coming week.

I want to say good night to everyone. I hope you have a safe and great night. May you all have a restful sleep. Stay safe. Stay cool. Be well. Be blessed. Most all, I wish you love...

~Phoenix