We are 6 Months into 2024!!!

 

Page 153 of 366. Hi Lovies. I hope you all are having this awesome weather, we are having here... I won't put a damper on this hot weather you all like, and say what I prefer. I will hide behind my closed curtains and enjoy my air conditioned home, sitting in front of my screen, trying to decide if I am going to attempt to write in both my personal and my crime blog today, or simply not push myself and just write about my day and thoughts only.

It's been a day, and although it may only be starting for some, it already feels like bedtime for me; and I already took a 2 hour nap earlier. I had set my alarm for 6:30 this morning, as I wanted to get my shopping out of the way. I was smart, in the sense, that I purchased a meat order from the butcher, so I didn't need to buy all of that from the grocery store, instead I just needed juices, pop, butter, milk... stuff like that. 

As you all know, I prefer to get to the stores before it gets too busy, as I can't handle when the world is too peopley.... welllllll, things didn't work out that way for me. I slept through my alarm that went off a few times... I had another terrible night of visions/nightmares, that I prefer not to think about. I dragged my ass out of bed by 8, and was at the store before 8:30 and home again within the hour. 

Yah, I am not a typical woman shopper (yah, I am stereotyping, because it IS the truth....)... I do NOT like shopping. I go in with a list, grab what is on the list and I get the hell out of dodge as quickly as I can. I seemt o always end up in a terrible headspace when I have to go shopping. My anxiety hits through the roof. I can;t handle crowds and if the store is busy, I don't like how many people there are and how far away I am from exits... it's a PTSD thing; and those who know me or are around me, know what I am talking about.... 

Let's talk about the insane lighting they have in stores too... it causes instant headaches, which make me weeble wobble and I tend to fall on my ass quickly from getting dizzy. Funny... in the sense, that to this day, I have still not used the option of instacart over shopping on my own... Maybe because I will continue to do it until it absolutely becomes impossible for me to do. I don't know, unless it is a dire need and I have someone I know well enough to grab someting for me, I really would prefer to go to the store and purchase my own groceries. I just find something so icky about a stranger grabbing fresh produce for me with who knows what is on their hands or where they have been. 

This may sound ridiculous to some people because as consumers we don't know who touches it in the stores or between the farms and the stores, but I'm a weirdo and I won't deny that. I like to pick my own fresh produce... Sorry, not sorry!!!

I am gonna eat some dinner, and lay in the darkest, coldest room in my house, hope to talk to my beloved and watch some more of the series that continues to enthrall me. I hope you all have a great night. Stay safe. Stay cool. Be well. Be loved. Blessed Be my Lovies.

~Phoenix