Happy National Do Something Nice Day!!!

 

Page 279 of 366. Good Morning Lovies. I hope the morn' greets you with good health; if not, I send my best thoughts, positivity and healing vibes to you. I haven't really written too much these days, as things have been fairly quiet; at least, in my personal life. 

Kinda been on edge waiting on the next round of tests or procedures and you guessed it, I got the call yesterday... one I was needing, but dreading. 

After the call, it took me a minute to process it, and my anxiety instantly clicked in, but as per usual, I am a fkn warrior and I got this shyt!!! 

This isn't my first rodeo and life hits like a bitch; so I am NOT going anywhere any time soon.

I am not going into detail here as it's only my nearest and dearest that really need to know what is happening in the weeks ahead; but I do have a question for my readers... (Just realize I am not asking this out of pity as this is just who I am...) 

When you have to go through a procedure or when you go to the ER, or admitted to the hospital for any extended type of time... do you go it alone, or do you have people come with you??? I am the type of person who goes through these things alone. I don't like people coming with me to the ER and I definitely don't like people having to be at the hospital when I have anything from a minor procedure to a major surgery. Is that weird??? 

It's not so much of an "I'm used to it", even though that is true too... it's more of I know it is going to be a long ass night as it is... there are usually so many tests they need to run. There is almost always a dispute between me and medical staff because they fail to read my chart and almost ALWAYS administer medications that I am allergic to. 

Here is a little example of what I go through... I know some of you won't find this funny, but I get so frustrated with them not reading my chart, once I was sent for an ultrasound on my abdomen, and as the technician was in the midst of it, her face went really pale. She looked at me, I asked her what was wrong and she said she couldn't find my uterus (sry for the graphics). I looked her dead in the eyes and panicked along with her (just for a few seconds, waited for her heart to calm a bit)...

Don't worry... I then told her to go look at my chart. I had a hysterectomy in 2001, when I was 25 (so 24 years ago); and had she bothered reading my chart, she would have known that... considering when I come into the hospital, I am asked MINIMUM 5 times BEFORE they even do this test!!!

I know this doesn't make sense to a lot of people, but if I can't keep my sense of humour and laugh at moments like this, or laugh at the state I am in, at any given moment, I would be crying... so since laughter is absolutely the best medicine (and I swear by this), then I will continue to laugh until there is no longer breath in my body.

That's my update for today, anyways. I hope you all get to enjoy this fall weather... hopefully it is still warm enough for all your riders to get in some more riding before this season end!!! Please stay safe... Knees to the breeze.

Stay safe. Stay cool/warm. Be well. Be blessed. Most of all, Be Loved!!!

~Phoenix

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