A Beautiful Disaster

Hi All. Wow, two days in a row that I am writing more than one blurb... odd, but I am running with it.

I saw a photo pop up somewhere on social media and it brought a smile to my face, along with a tear realizing how privileged I was to have such an angel in my life but sad that the world lost such an incredible soul far too soon. 

I understand why the universe brought her into my crazy ass space; and I get that she was one of the "here for a season and reason" kinda of souls. It just really made me think of her, and I had to pause and celebrate her, in the only way I know how... and the way she'd love the most... in my writings.

First, I really need people to understand that sometimes people you meet on social media can have just as much of an impact on your life as people who are actually IN your real life. Violet, most definitely, was one of them. I cannot even tell you where we met, or how long ago it was; but we were in each others lives for a good number of years; some very old souls who recognized each other the instant we spoke.

I want to say that I shared words of wisdom with her, but I can't be sure; all I know is she was by far the wisest and most beautiful old soul I have ever met. The amount of wisdom she bestowed on me, is knowledge I will spread to those who crave it, like I did and still do. There is one thing she taught me that I think of on the daily, especially in troubled times...

She really instilled in me, that my belief of viewing people as they are was perfect. What some saw as flaws I saw as beautiful. The biggest struggle I had was being able to see that within myself. 

I always felt I was broken beyond repair. Life had knocked me down a billion times and at one point, I honestly felt that I was destined to be destitute and alone on this journey. I was here to love people with every fibre of my being... I was to love far more than I would ever get in return. I had accepted that as reality... until Violet's wise words, opened my eyes (all 3)...

Violet had an insurmountable amount of patience and love for me.She repeated these words to me, in various forms, until I didn't just hear her... I LISTENED. SO if you will allow me, I would love to share her bit of wisdom that I carry everywhere with me...

"No one is perfect. We all have pasts, and once we have faced our pasts and forgiven ourselves for our own misgivings, NO ONE has the ability to shame you into feeling guilty for what you already forgave yourself for. That is the past, you don't live there any more." The biggest thing she taught me, was this... "Everyone is broken. We all have cracks. We have all been shattered and glued back together, but never put back together the same. Do you want to know why??? So people can see the light from within. Our light is now a beacon for another who is lost in the darkness we once resided in!!"

To this day, that is the most profound thing I have ever heard. Wherever Violet has ended up. I feel her presence every once in a while; a nudge to remind me that there is always a brighter day; that the moon shall shine, the sun will always rise. The leaves will fall, and they will blossom again... it's the circle of life. The key word for all of that is LIVE!!!

Thank you dear friend. GBNF

~Phoenix