Amazing How Seasons Change...

Page 313 of 366. Good Morning Lovies. I hope you all had a restful sleep and that the day greets you and keeps only good things for you all. 

I apologize for not posting the past few days; I have been dealing with a "funk" of my own and thought it best to stay away from posting anything as I prefer not to post out of anger and spit the venom that is so richly deserved at that time and still now...

I will however state that nothing and no one is going to ever have that much power over me that they will change who and how I am... 

Sorry, not 1 person in this world is worth having control of my emotions and my inner being. You want to break me??? Nah dude; ain't happening!!! I have been through way too much shyt for a pissant like you to even make me stumble; just remember that! I don't play the victim. I am not a victim. In fact, I am not even a survivor. I am a fucking WARRIOR!!!

Now that I got that off my chest, I wanna talk about how much I need to express my gratitude for the people in my life. Those who have been here for many seasons, and for those who have just arrived this season... don't underestimate the seasons a person has been in your life because honestly, one that is well-seasoned and been around for decades can be a POS to you... a backstabber or simply someone who doesn't deserve the goodness you have for them and there can be a person has just arrived in the newest season, and have more concern and "love" for your well-being than others. SImply stating facts!!! 

(Please know I use the word love on various levels here; since it is such a versatile word. It's the easiest one to use; although excessively sacred).

I just want to reiterate that I have such a profound love and respect for my brothers and sisters... my famILY. There is never a day I am not grateful and filled with security, knowing that you will always be the ones who have got my six... no matter what!!! Thank you and I LOVE YOU!!!

I think I am going to leave this blurb here, as I feel I have expressed exactly what I needed to, in this moment. May you all stay safe. Stay warm/cool. Be well. Be blessed. But most of all, Be loved.

~Phoenix

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