Dazed and Confused

 

Page 325 of 366. Good Afternoon Lovies. I hope the day treats you well. I know I say a lot of the time, I cannot believe we are already in the 11th month of 2024; but at the same time, these days I feel like time is going backwards. Is it just me???

I feel like I have been in a cloud lately and I don't like this feeling, at all. After my most recent visit with my family doctor, we have decided to try for me to no longer take my anxiety/panic attack medications. 

I was finding they made me more anxious afterwards. There really was no benefit to them. It's a trial & error thing right now...

I am thinking I could be "off" because my body is going through withdrawals from that... ohhhhh the joys having mental health disorders, right?!!

I also have what they call "seasonal depression", which I find kind of odd because I am one of the few who absolutely LOVES the winter. Maybe they call it that because many don't enjoy holidays due to some sort of trauma or loss. Maybe it's because of all the people who become so superficial this time of the year. People who turn blind eyes to the needed throughout the year, but suddenly want to look great by donating to charities at this time of year. I know donating is always a good thing, but people like that truly disgust me!!!

Another thing about this time of year, is the "fake" people. I am saying this from the bottom of my heart. I am not talking about the ones who fake being nice, or act like they are great people when around a big gathering, but lousy souls behind closed doors... I am talking about people who literally have to put on that smile, just to appease those around us; because let's be real... they know we are struggling, but most don't care enough, nor want to hear about it. (These are simple facts).  

As an empath, this is disturbing. I want all my loved ones to know, if you are struggling, no matter what it is... msg me, call me. I am here through the darkness and the light. I am very fluent in silence and sadness. Please believe there is no judgment from me... I am the LAST person who can judge anyone. 

On that note, I only have one wish for Yule, and it is this... (and it won't cost you a penny)...

Check on your friends. Check on your loved ones. Check on your famILY. Check on those who always seem the strongest, because they are usually the ones suffering the most internally. Just because they can carry that heavy load, doesn't mean they should!!! Please think about that!!!

Stay safe. Stay warm/cool. Be well. Be blessed. Most of all, Be loved.

~Phoenix

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