Emotions Triggered

 

Page 319 of 366. Good Afternoon Lovies. I hope you all have a fantabulous Thor's Day!!! I gotta say, it's a cool Autumn afternoon and I am thoroughly enjoying the cooler weather... I am definitely what you'd call a fall/winter baby. 

I am writing this blurb because of some events that happened this week; triggering some memories and emotions in me. Please remember I will try to keep this as anonymous as possible because some parts are not my story to tell...

I have heard through the years, how people have passed away in their homes, and their bodies (human shells) are not discovered for days or even weeks by family members or loved ones. Is this the norm for people who actually have family members in their lives???

I guess I have always viewed "family" in this picturesque kind of way. I don't know if it's because I never really had the traditional family, people speak of; or if I've heard the bastardized version: "blood is thicker than water" for most of my life... either way, every time I hear a story of someone being found like that, my heart sinks. 

It also makes me feel like an asshole for being angry at those who have "checks" done on me, when they just want to make sure I am okay. 

I can't really add much more to this blurb, other than I am kind of glad that I don't have family like those people. My famILY are people who actually LOVE me. Not a single one of them do I share DNA with; but every single one of them has show me what love is, on levels others probably don't see from the toxic blood they are tied to. 

Sorry, those are just my thoughts for today.

~Phoenix

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