It's Amazing What Triggers Me...

 

Page  326 of 366. Good Afternoon my Lovies. I hope the day has gone smoothly for you.  I know a lot of you don't like the dreary, rainy, foggy weather but I am rather fond of it. I don't like what it does to my body, but I will take the win of enjoying what rain and storms signify to me. 

I, like many others, cope with chronic pain along with other ailments that are deeply affected by the weather ~ either way it affects me... 

Heat is brutal for me, probably far worse than the cold, but damp is not the greatest for me neither... 

Let's not even discuss how the barometric pressure is literally a psychotic rollercoaster, on a GOOD day!!!

For today, it is dreary, it the fog has been heavy, but I have a deep appreciation for fog. It brings a depth of mystery to life, that only fog has the ability to do... and who doesn't like a little mystery??? Hell, maybe it's just the British in me that has just adapted to it... who knows. LOL

Let's get to the topic at hand. I wanted to talk about triggers; one in specific... FIRE!!! I bring this one up today, because I had a convo with beloved last night about it, and oddly, although I am a fire sign, I am not very fond of fire. You could say I have a respectful fear of fire. (For those who are spiritual, and believe in reincarnation or different planes, or any of those sort of things; you will understand why I am stating this...)

Today, I had the rain, which is beloved's sign, and always has a way of calming me. I LOVE WATER!!! So most of the day has been serene and peaceful BUT then, I waas faced with calling 9-1-1 because there was a house on fire across the street from where I live. (To most people this would not be a big deal, but this brought back sensations and memories I desperately prefer to leave where they should be... in the NETHER REGIONS OF MY MIND!!!)

Alas, this unfortunately is not what the universe decided. I stood and watched as the smoke was seeping through the roof, all the way around the house, with the flames shooting through the midst of it. Oddly, the residents of the home, were standing inside the house, with their door open. My first instinct was to run over there and drag their stupid asses outside; but then realized, they could have been in shock and the firehall is just a minute away. I stayed there frozen in a moment of time I wish I never experienced....

This fire, thankfully, was put out fairly quickly, although I am sure the firetrucks will be staying on scene for any spot fires throughout the next little while. The memories that came back were first of my cousin who died in a housefire when I was a child. He was only a teen himself, who was wheelchair bound. You want to know what started the fire??? His parents threw cigarette butts into the garbage. It was a painful loss.

Then 10 years ago this year, (I am not mentioning names), another family member had died in a house fire. I will never forget hearing those words, having to tell her mother that she was gone, but it was only machines keeping her alive until her mom could get to the hospital, to say her goodbyes. The watching of parents crumble as they mourn what should never happen... (I know it's an impossible thing to feel, as it happens way too often)... a parent should NEVER have to bury their child. People are never the same after these loses. 

So when I say, I fear fire... I have quite valid reasons for it.

I am not saying, I don't enjoy a good BBQ. I also love a beautiful campfire, but what I cannot stand is when you're having a bonfire and the people who are supposed to maintain the fire, decide it would be entertaining to throw fireworks into it, or use flamethrowers with it, or pour aerosol cans into it, etc. 

Every element that exists in this universe is to be respected and used wisely. It is as natural as it is dangerous. Disrespecting it, could and eventually will have dire consequences... I am not saying that this woman, nor my cousin deserved to die. I am just saying this is WHY I have a profound respect; a reverant fear, if you will, when it comes to fire. 

It's the same with AIR. I love air, fresh, cool air; a soft breeze; but strong winds, I don't do so well with. Wind is not to be trifled with... look at hurricanes, tornadoes. 

WATER is beautiful. It can is vital for living, but it is also dangerous. Look at tsunamis or typhoons. Massive floods that wipe out lands.

We then have EARTH... What could be dangerous about the earth, you may ask. Earthquakes. Mudslides. Avalanches. Volcanoes (technically more elements used, but you're getting the drift).

Every element that we have is something that we all need to survive but every one of them is also something that can, and will kill us in the end. I know this blurb kind of went off it's theme, but these are my thoughts on it.

Stay safe. Stay warm/cool. Be well. Be blessed. Most of all, Be loved.

~Phoenix