Sunday... Funday???

 

Page 308 of 366. Good Evening Lovies. I know this blurb is coming a little late tonight. I wasn't sure I would even write one today, as I was kinda lollygagging or dilly dallying all day today... Hell, I was being a lazy ass today; let's just face facts!!! 

It was Sunday, better know as Football Sundays, so I hung out with friends and caught a couple of the games. Grey Cup is happening in a few weeks.

(The Canadian version of the Superbowl; even though we all love to make fun of the league and refer to the CFL as the Children's Football League)!!!

I am all caught up on my favourite current TV show... If you haven't seen "FROM", and like shows that are twisted, dramatic, horrifying and just simply fkd up... I highly recommend checking out the series.

Tonight, I am going to bitch a little about something that irks me, every time I read about it...

I have openly admitted that to both my blood family and my adopted family, I am 100% the black sheep. I used to let their opinions of me bother me to the brink of me attempting suicide a countless number of times. 

It has taken people a good decade to pound it into my head that I really shouldn't feel bad about what they feel, since their actions and words are simply a reflection about them... this is where I adopted the mentality of... 

"YOUR OPINION OF ME, IS NOT MY BUSINESS!!!" and at the end of the day; it really isn't. Your views of me, especially if they are detrimental to my health, do not need to be a part of my life... PERIOD!!!

I get really disgusted when people use the phrase, "Blood is thicker than water," because again, this is such an ignorant comment. Most people using the phrase don't even know they are using the bastardized version of the true meaning. 

The full quote is this... "Blood of the covenant is thicker than water of the womb!!!" Simply put, this was meant to mean... the bonds chosen through agreements are more important than those formed by blood relations. (Also used to describe soldiers who fought together in a battle, forming a "blood covenant")!!!

I tend to feel that those same people saying that phrase fail to acknowledge that sometimes blood is the most toxic substance you might ever encounter in your life. My friends and loved ones, are the ones who I choose to be my famILY. They are the very definition of what a family should be.

I should explain what triggered this entry...

I am sick and tired of these people who feel like they are self-entitled and feel like the world owes them something. All of us deal with loss. All of us deal with some sort of family feud, or broken family. All of us cope with family drama; and most people I know, deal with being the black sheep or outcast in their family... However, most don't whine and moan about it. We pull up our panties or boxers and deal with it!!!

This may seem harsh, but I have explained repeatedly that I do NOT hold sympathy for a lot of people. I am very empathic for people. I take the time to hear what they are dealing with; but I cannot feel sympathy for them; especially when I know the circumstances surrounding the departure of their loved ones. Am I being rude? Am I wrong??? 

I just feel when you're a grown ass adult, you can only use the "black sheep" mentality as a crutch for so long before people are going to resent you and scoff at you for being childish. Get over it; besides, being the black sheep is actually a good thing... less drama and less people sticking their noses where they don't belong. Sit back and enjoy the life you have left... fuck them haters!!!

Stay wild!!!

~Phoenix

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