The Countdown is On...

 

Page 309 of 366. Good Evening Lovies. I hope you had a great day, despite it being a Monday UGH!!! 

I cannot really believe how incredibly fast this year has been; even though there have been some insane ups and downs this year... 

Some of which I truly wasn't sure I would be seeing the other side of;but for some odd reason, the universe felt it was NOT my time to leave this plane. 

Kinda crazy thought considering all the shyt I have been through. 

It was difficult trying to show people results from some of my medical testing, when they literally show that I should have been on a slab and my ashes tossed into the water where I wish to be my final resting place for this human shell!!! 

(People are going to believe what they choose to believe and I am not going to be the one who is going to bicker who has the right beliefs and who is completely irrational in their thinking; because at the end of the day, who really knows who will be right or wrong?... or IF there really is a right or wrong way of things???)...

I will definitely say this has been a year of enlightenment, on many, many levels. Not just being on the brink of death and fighting back from that, more than once in the past 12 months; but also the new things life has presented to me. I have been learning a lot of things that I guess for lack of a better word, I have been "ignorant" to most of my life.

I have found a new sense of love in my life; not just for other people, but also within and towards myself. I used to know I was a tough chick. I knew that I had people behind me... people, I truly knew as my famILY; but what was new to me, was learning and ACCEPTING how much I was DESERVING of the love I was receiving from others in my life too.

Those very people have cracked the hardest shell... the highest wall that has kept my heart of glass protected for decades. They managed to chisel to the point that they were able to see the beautiful light that was hidden behind those cracks. I just want to thank you all... old and new people in my life, for showing me that the girl and woman I fought so hard to become, is still in here. She has been dying to re-emerge and you all have given her the courage to step out of the shadows and use her voice to stand up for everything she believes in.  THANK YOU!!!

~Phoenix

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