The Year of FAFO

 

Afternoon Lovies. I'm sending out love and light to those who are struggling with this time of the year; especially if this sort of weather is getting them down, or keeping them "down" physically. I hear ya, and I definitely feel ya on that one!!!

I kinda want to talk about something that may be bit of a touchy subject with some, nonetheless I am going to do it anyways... WHY??? Because I am me! SIMPLE.

First off, we all know this year has been quite the rollercoaster, and I want to say we're at the end of the 11th hour/chapter; we should all give ourselves a pat on the back for getting through another difficult, but NOT impossible year!

I DO know this year has given a lot of lessons to numerous people. It has shown a number of us who are real, legit, solid people and who are only there for convenience... it has shown others what love (pure and unwavering) is. The greatest gift this year has given a lot of us, is a mirror. Odd, right?

You need to know I am only writing about my own experiences because to write of another's would be wrong, as that is their story to tell... This is one of my biggest rules, along with not mentioning names in my blog, or on social media. IYKYK.

This blurb bounces back to the good, the bad and the very ugly. I feel this year has been pretty decent. It has been a BIG year for lessons, both in a positive and negative way... either way, LIFE LESSONS!!!

Medically, I came back, for the most part, from some very difficult issues... once again, things that probably would have killed most people. I continue to battle but I am a fkn warrior and I will not be defeated. You wanna know why? 

I fear nothing in front of me because I know the army, and the love that is standing right behind me. FamILY, Beloved, Friends...

The lesson I DID learn from this rough patch was who are solid people, and sometimes those who have only come into my life recently care far more than some who have been around for years, or even decades... sad, but true!!! 

I also severed ties from people, I NEVER thought I'd turn my back on. I, for years, held out hope that people would love me as much as I loved them; that they were invested as much in me, as I was in them... Unfortunately, some people simply keep others around for their own personal "amusement", if you will. People who have zero concept of what loyalty, respect and honour is. 

It really did take that MIRROR to see that sometimes empaths (like me), rarely find people who love as deep as we do. I have said many, many times that I would lay my life down for the people I love, the same people I have learned wouldn't even thrown a glass of water on me, if I were on fire. This profoundly changed me.

I admit, I have not always been the best person to have around neither. I have been bitter and filled with rage. I openly acknowledge my misgivings and I have apologized and learned from my behaviours. It took me finally forgiving myself in order to see that it always takes 2 people to destroy something; and truthfully, I don't need to explain my side of things because those who know me, know my character... know my heart. 

People can spew what they want... THAT is on them. I respect myself enough to never give anyone permission to try to pull me down to their level. I love to get down and dirty... but I am beyond that. Go find a puppet that you can play with!!!

I vowed to everyone I knew, 2024 was going to be the year of FAFO... and it has been. I am in a good space... are things perfect??? Nothing ever is, but they are are much closer to perfect than hellish... and I'll take that as a win. I should really thank the universe for that, and I do... (although Lucifer defintely played a MASSIVE role in this one)... inside joke :)

Stay safe. Stay warm/cool. Be well. Be blessed. Most of all, Be loved.

~Phoenix