I Want to End This On a High Note....

Page 360 of 366. We are in the final days... the last week of this year. To those of you who celebrate it... Happy Christmas... Merry Yule!!! LOL. Whatever you are celebrating, I hope you have a great time and are surrounded by those you love, and who love you. 

Today, has been sort of a day of "reckoning" for me...

Some truths came out that I have been waiting for DECADES to hear. I am not gloating, nor saying these are massive wins; because if anyone knows what this means, they know how deep this scar runs...

I am not going to get into the deets about this particular conversation, but let's just say some people who have been very stuck in their ways, (just as I have been VERY stubborn, in my core beliefs); we have come to a massive "plateau" (so to speak), when it came to these massive differences. To hear someone admit that there are lies in the bible and that it's more of a premise than a truth; was a HUGE deal to me. 

I am not saying this is a "victory" because it was never about who was right or wrong... It was and is more about, broadening people's mentalities and minds to bigger possibilities. I feel a weight has kind of lifted off my shoulders with the conversation we had tonight...Life had literally come full circle. The questions I asked as a mere child were now asked with much more knowledge, (and still the craving for MORE knowledge and understanding)... I feel today I got some really honest answers from people that have always shunned my own personal struggles. I guess in a sense I felt validated FINALLY!!! 

It was nice to be viewed as an adult among those who always treated me child-like. I don't know what overcame me, but someone, or many someones, gave me the courage to approach the subject with finesse and genuinely being open minded to not just the communication that was happening, but also the comprehension. All in all, I feel this part of the day, made the visit I initially dreaded, a decent one. I have to admit, I was glad to go.

I hope you all have a blessed night. Stay safe. Stay warm/cool. Be well. Be blessed. Most of all, Be loved.

~Phoenix

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

It's a Hide Under the Covers Kinda Day

Image
Page 14 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. I really, really hope your day is going better than mine!!! Sorry, woke up at the asscrack of dawn, as I had a doctor's appointment this morning.  Thankfully it was with my family doctor; appointments with him are fairly painless.  Today, however; things kinda went sideways.  I am usually in and out within 10 mins for these appts, but today? I was there for over 45 minutes. Of course, it didn't help that I was puking maroon blood in the office. I know, I don't share a lot of my medical nor really personal stuff on here, but just so you're aware, this has been happening daily since end of May/beginning of June last year. I am what they call an "anemic blood clotter" which I didn't think was possible, but apparently it runs on the paternal side of my family. Anyways, that was the main focus of my visit after that. My stomach medication is being switched AGAIN, this time I am being set up with an antibiotic (which is cra...
Read more

FFS I Matter Too!!!

Image
Good evening lovies. I have been struggling with something that is very close to my heart. I truly do not know where to proceed next. I'm going to try and make a very long story as simple as I can... I was adopted at 5months of age, (well apprehended at 5 months, adopted at 5 years). There is something that adoptees yearn for all their lives... WHY?  I know for me there were many questions and on my 19th birthday it appeared I was going to get those answers when I met the woman who birthed me. Unfortunately, I was sorely mistaken!!! Years went by, and I allowed this woman to have control over certain things that were weighing heavily on my heart, She held the one piece of the puzzle that felt missing from my heart... who my biological father was?!! I, one day decided that I wasn't going to allow another person have that kind of control over me... EVER!!! I left the situation alone. I struggled deeply. I was literally at war with myself. on this topic. In a way, I felt guilty th...
Read more

Tis the Season.... Why I Am Proud of Local Tattoo Shop!!!

Image
  Page 307 of 366. Good Afternoon Lovies. I am not sure how long this blurb is going to be; as it seems to be a topic I have been beating to death this past year. I know it is the time of the year where we switch from Halloween/Samhain into Thanksgiving (in the US) to Yule/Christmas season.  I hate pointing out this fact, but people seem to feel like Christmas time is the only time of the year that they should be charitable...  Is it out of guilt that you are donating, or is it because you genuinely feel you should be helping people??? I AM sort of calling you out because this is NOT the only time of the year that the homeless, or the downtrodden need help. I cannot stand that this is around the only time you will see non-stop commercials/ads or billboards that are asking for help with various charities; also the time we see commercials about driving under the influence. WHY IS THAT??? Driving under the influence is a year-long problem... I will not get into details about...
Read more