There's a Snake in the Grass!!!

Hi all. I'm back again. There is something weighing on my mind. As per my usual, I will not be mentioning names...

Just recently, I found myself in the position of helping someone who was placed in a vulnerable position. I felt I needed to do what needed to be done, to ensure that they were safe, with a warm place and a roof over their head. 

(I know. I know. My heart is too damn big for this fkd up world... But, I will never allow this bitter wolrd to change it! I cannot become bitter. I will not become bitter!!!)

I do not fault this person, as we all get into "jams" in life and sometimes simply need a breather to figure out our next steps. I was a brief stepping stone for whatever will be. Some may call me a "sucker" for extending my hand to those in need; but I KNOW what it is like to NOT have a safety net, and I always promised myself I wouldn't allow another fellow being to ever feel that way, if I can help in any way. I DID go with this situation with my eyes wide open... so when they up and left because of BS they needed to hear as an excuse to leave... then so be it!!!

I am NOT one who will EVER try to defend slander or the actions of others about nor towards me. I have become who I am, on my own merit. Am I a saint??? Fk no... I readily admit that. I acknowledge my faults, accept accountability and move forward. No one can try to hold anything against me that which I have forgiven myself for. My past is my past... I don't live there anymore, but by all means... you wanna live there and stay stuck there... that is entirely on you!!!

I also need to add that I am at the point in my life that I have no more time for games, unless they are bedroom games (just saying). I have recently discovered that someone I thought would be in my life forever betrayed me in a way I never thought imaginable. 

I will not get into details, but I considered this person my friend, my famILY... but I learned that even with the best of intentions, there are people who just prefer to be people pleasers... I have no room for that in my life. Loyalty can NOT be bought!!!

As for the slander and BS others spew... I again will say. I don't care what people have to say. I KNOW who I am. I don't need to go around defending myself to people who a. don't know me, and b. prefer to talking out the side of their necks. I am not here to appease anyone. I don't need to lie about people to gain friends or gain a posse to defend me. 

When I say something about someone, I will say the same thing to their face... AND I will have proof to back it up. People just be aware that there are snakes in the grass... they paint their faces as familiars and friends, but are nothing more than a disguise of idiots; who think they can fool you!!!

Lastly, I am one who follows what I practice...

What you think of me, is NOT my opinion... So, shove that in your pipe and smoke it. You are insignificant to me. Your opinion is irrelevant; especially since you don't know me at all. You only know what I choose to show you... Let that sink in!!!

~Phoenix

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