A Day in My Head

 

Afternoon Peeps. This entry is possibly going to be one that is a bit off the wall for some. I have missed writing for 3 days, so my thoughts are kinda jumbled.

I am just going to write this out and hope it somehow makes sense...

I have spent most of my life, sort of in the "shadows". Yes, I have a bubbly personality, IF I am around the right crowd of people... People I trust and feel safe with. 

I need to be in an environment where I know that being open and vulnerable, is not going to be criticized or scrutinized by the people around me. Now, don't get this twisted, when I am talking about being "open" and "vulnerable", it's not about sharing sad stuff; it is simply about being able to be free, being able to joke around. 

I don't like being around people who get easily offended, or those who can't handle sarcasm. I am not saying to be ignorant to people; but if people have to be restricted in their words than what is the point in speaking at all. I also have to say, in many of the environments I grew up around, people had "altered states of minds", and situations made me very uncomfortable. 

Now the question is WHY this specific meme???

I have been the "moon" most of my life. Like I have stated, I preferred staying in the shadows, the support without a name. The traditional ol school ways. A lot of people don't get it; it is the way of life, and I love it that way. I don't find it abusive, as it isn't (read previous blogs for that explanation)... 

I guess what I am getting at is this... in the past few years, things have been shifting. I am now more of the sun, than the moon. It sounds strange to people because luna is usually associated with women and solar is men; but I don't view it that way. I am very much a moon lover. I am a creature of the night (Just ask my doctor. He calls me a "Vampyre" LOL). The moon is my guide... it's light brightens my way; that being said... "You ARE my moon!!!"

~ Phoenix

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