This Heart Has a Mind of Its Own

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Good Afternoon my Lovies. I sit here this morning, thinking about some of the conversations I had towards the end of 2024... especially those that really touched my heart; one in particular. 

(I am not going to reveal names, as this is one of my biggest policies in my writing. People entrust their stories to me, and I respect them enough and am honoured they trust me that much.

I will not betray them, whether we are great or have a falling out... their stories are theirs to tell ~ NOT MINE!!!)

Maybe it is just the mentality of people who have been at rock bottom, or had a period in their life where the only person they could trust was themselves (if they even had that); but there are just some people who are "pillars", or "beacons" (if you rather), for people who are going through the worst of the worst... 

People who are simply there to listen, to reach out their hand, no questions asked. No judgement. I seem to be one of those people. I am not patting myself on my back, like this is supposed to be something special. To me, any decent human being should automatically do this. I can't grasp how there are people who think they are above anyone when it comes to hitting rock bottom; because that is one thing, no tier of wealth is immune to!!!

What is the point of this blurb???

I had someone who has been in my life for decades, reveal that they reach out to me any time they "slip". My response was that I was glad they knew I was a safe space and knew I would always be there to speak to and help them up. "Slipping" or "Falling" are words that imply you CAN get back up!!! 

I don't care where I am, or where you're at... I will drop anything for those in my life to help them in crisis; in good times and bad times. Hell, sarcasm may be my first language but I am also fluent in silence... it's a language I am extremely familiar with. I'm just as familiar with the dark, so TRUST when I say, "You never have to be alone!!!"

I want to thank the person who shared those words with me this week, because it warms my heart to know that I am that beacon (to others); I had always wanted, and needed for myself... a beacon someone once was for me. I now carry the torch, and hope to one day pass it on. I really hope you all have a blessed day.

Stay safe. Stay warm/cool. Be well. Be blessed. Most of all, Be loved.

~ Phoenix

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