You Ever Been There???

 

Page 25 of 365. Good Evening Lovies. I know it is extremely late tonight to be writing an entry; but I am completely scatter-brained tonight and just need to somehow sort the things out... and writing in my blog seems to be the best way to do that!!!

This may seem like an "age old" kind of question, and one that truly doesn't have an answer; but I am going to ask it anyways. Maybe there is an ancestral, very old, wise soul out there who can put some wisdom into this for me...

Have you ever stood at a precipice of time... a portal of sorts; where you had to make a choice that would alter your life completely? 

Knowing what happened taking the one route... if you were brought back to the same cliff, would you choose the same, with the knowledge you learned since that life-altering moment???

I have always said, "THERE ARE NO "COULDA", "SHOULDA", "WOULDA". THERE ONLY IS WHAT IS!!!" I have been constantly reminded that my way of thinking on everything being so "black or white was wrong; and there are many grey areas in life, contradict that sentiment though.

I dwell on things like this, especially when I cannot ease my mind at night; when I so desperately need some sleep. It's THIS that keeps me awake at nights....If given the opportunity to change things, would I? and if it truly is a possibility, what would I change? Which fork in the road would I have shifted??? 

There are endless possibilities; but that then begs the question... what about the "BUTTERFLY EFFECT"??? I didn't have an easy life by any means. I am where I am today, on my own merit. I am a warrior of many things ~ I have the scars to prove the many wars I have fought. Yes, life was difficult, but if I change one thing, that changes the course of everything and everyone I have today, right? How would that make things better???

Honestly, the only thing I would have done differently was put more of my love into the people who deserved it. I like to think I would still be the strong-willed, warrior and friend I have been to those who are in my life. I hope that never changes... that loyalty, respect, love, trust, and honour run to no end.

What are your thoughts??? What was the course / or cliff where you had to make a choice that altered your life? Would you take the opposite path if given the chance???

~Phoenix

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