Insane Thoughts of the Lucid Mind

Good Evening Lovies. I hope you are all staying warm and toasty on this rather dreary night. I sit here on the couch, waiting for the hockey game starting in 20 minutes.... LOL 

Y'all know I am a huge sports buff AND hockey truly is CANADA'S game, tonight is an interesting one as my team plays against my best friend's... 

Well, let's be honest, most people I know, don't like my choice of hockey team... but I am not a wagon jumper so I remain a HABS fan 4lyfe!!!

I have this sense that I need to get things off my chest, but I am not even sure where this urge is coming from, to be perfectly honest.

This past week has been filled with more up and downs than any fkn rollercoaster I have ever been on... and trust, with my mental health... I have been on quite a few!!! So where do I begin with such a tangled mess of thoughts???

Maybe I should start with how an ex had contacted me, acting like the childish man-child he has always been. If there is one thing that I cannot stand (besides abusive pieces of shyt), is men who are fkn whiners. When I say something. I stand on it. When I use the word "No!!!" and men/people persist with their whining; I truly have to wonder how daft they really are. Like, which part of "NO" did you not understand??? The "N" or the "O"??? We had our chance, shit didn't work, move on. To bring up things from the past like they effect every day life currently, is pathetic. You want to live in the past, and wallow in your own self-pity, have at it. It's the past. I don't live there anymore.

I have watched people bash others this past week that boggles my mind. The way some talk about others, who are supposedly their best friends/buddies/brothers, etc... Where the fuck is the loyalty??? I'll tell you something, I have a small circle of friends, one above all others. I would NEVER allow ANYONE to talk shyt about him. NEVER!!! 

I don't care how big and tough you think you are. You could be the biggest beast out there; but you'll be the biggest joke when it's just a short woman that curb stomps you!!! IDGAF... There is nothing I stand by more than loyalty, respect, honour, trust and love... if you don't have one, you don't have any!!!

Now I am going to completely jump topics... Social media... What can I possibly say about this stuff??? Ohhhh, well take a seat!!!

I find that SM is a huge blessing but also a massive curse. It has made the universe a much smaller place, but it has also created unimaginable problems. I am NOT a fan of people who bring their private lives onto SM. I mean, have at it, if you want to share that you are in a relationship, or married, single, widowed, divorced, etc... you could be in a throuple for all I care. 

The thing is, when you bring your private life into the public, it tends to get messy. Jealousy. Insecurities. Cheating. SM becomes a gateway to the imagination. If you're happy with your life... congrats, I am happy for you. I truly am. Fair warning... not all people think like I do. People see others happy and make it their mission to destroy their happiness. WHY??? Simply because they can.

People bring their beefs with their partner on-line; family and friends immediately take sides; but when the couple makes up... who become the assholes??? The people who supported their loved one. That is just one thing...

I have this motto... "DEFEND IN PUBLIC. CORRECT IN PRIVATE"

When you bash or argue with your significant other on social media, or out in public; you are giving those bitties (men and women) a chance to see the cracks between you two, and will begin to gnaw away at them, like rabid dogs. I guess in this instance, SM is not the only way to destroy your relationship; but it definitely makes it easier for people to worm their way in, and destroy what was once solid. Maybe think twice before you post all your personal drama...

You may be saying I am a hypocrite here. I know I have done it in the past; but I am thankful to have learned this lesson. People have no clue about my private life, whether I am single, taken, mingling or committed to someone... I prefer it this way. I am ME, and that is all you need to know. I post memes on SM, the thing is; people tend to forget (or not understand), I post them for my amusement, not because they necessarily refer to my life or situation.

I feel like I am starting to babble... so much to spew but yet too jumbled and sounds like verbal diarrhea at the moment. I admit, I DO tend to share more in my blog than I do on my Social media platforms, but I still stick to my basic rule of not mentioning names nor getting too specific on people's identities. 

I, however, am not opposed to exposing names when it comes to helping others heal. I can take the brunt of it... it is what I do. We must stand together when our loved ones, famILY or friends are in need of love, protection, security, or simply a circle to hold them up.... tto let them know, the battles they are facing; they are not alone. That's all I got for this one.

Stay safe. Stay warm. Be well. Be blessed. Most of all, Be LOVED!!!

~ Phoenix