Name That Tune

 

Good Evening my Beauties. As I sit here in a lull, I have some music playing in the background as I contemplate writing my thoughts... sometimes it IS better to keep my thoughts to myself; but then I tend to get into trouble and what is the point of having my own personal blog, if I cannot express exactly what I think and feel???

I was going to attempt to stay up and watch the series finale of one of my fave shows, but honestly, my heart just hasn't been into it. I haven't even watched the last 3 episodes. 

I think it has to do with knowing the series is ending, so what is the point of investing any more of my time to something that has a definite ending. 

I know... I am weird!!!

I am curled under my blankets, wishing somehow that I wasn't here alone; yet enjoying my solitude. I love my peace. I love my bubble. I am not one of those people who craves attention, or needs to be around people all the time. I am quite content with how my life is. People struggle with being alone. I guess the best way to describe me is this...

"I AM ALONE. I AM NOT LONELY!!!" Make sense???

As y'all know, the past couple weeks have been a bit of a struggle on my psyche and heart. There were a lot of death dates and birthdays all in one shot; I acknowledged them all, and I made it out pretty unscathed. Obviously I sat with some memories, laughed, cried and smiled... grateful for the time I had with each individual who has passed on. Blew a kiss to wherever they are and I have carried on. 

Today, well, just now, something kinda took the air outta my lungs.

There are weird things that happen, like a scent that connects to a passed loved one. A phrase, or a sound; sometimes there is even a song. I have a hard time playing "I'll Be Missing You" by Puff Daddy feat. Faith Evans as Teddybear oddly played that song constantly the last week of his life... a genre of music he was not a fan of AT ALL!!! 

The song came on, and I actually had to turn it off, not because it was painful to hear... it is now because all I feel when I hear anything from Puff, I picture his "freak offs" and all the disgusting shit he is being accused of and some of it proven. (Kinda like my disdain for Tom Cruise over his Scientology bullshit... it's so bad, I won't watch anything with him in it).

So, I guess my question is this...

Do y'all have songs that remind you of someone in your life, or someone who has passed on??? I have songs that when I hear them, bring me to memories with people and moments we shared. Some hold bitter, painful times, while others fill my heart to the point, it is overflowing with love. 

So the last thing I want to know is this... Do you have a song that is sooooo sacred to you, that you haven't shared the significance of it with anyone? A song that touches you in ways, it is only sacred to you and that specific person??? I am not asking who you share the song with, I'd just love to know what the song is. I love listening to various genres, and I pay very close attention to lyrics. I hope you do me the honour and ...NAME THAT TUNE!!!

Much love,

~ Phoenix

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