Stuck Inside...

 

Page 44 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. I hope you day is treating you well. I hope you are all staying warm and cozy despite the nasty weather we've been having lately. 

(I have to note, that I am not one of those who detests the cold, or snow... but I do not like my loved ones, nor anyone being out in any dangerous conditions!!!)

I have slowly being stuck in my head. I am on the verge of a complete breakdown. I shared my concern and I am hanging on by a thread because I know I am needed as much as the person I spoke to is.

I swear life just doesn't seem to give much of a break to people. I am not going to complain because I know a lot of others have harder lives, and I am blessed to have the people I have in my life... one above all others; but ya know...

I am stuck in the middle of a DNA bullshit situation that was formed because two adults hooked up, had me. The cooter shooter, spit me out; abandoned me, then contacted the paternal side, that she had a child. Because of their decision to hop into bed together; I AM LEFT TO CLEAN UP THE MESS THAT IS ME!!!

I am dealing with a monster corporation who hired someone, knowing his history of being a sexual deviant. I've been sexually harrassed and sexually assaulted by him; I know of several women he has harrassed... so this is still a developing story; meaning I cannot close that chapter any time soon. 

I have been hurt by men before, and when I made a promise that I would never allow one to hurt me again, whether it be a hand in anger, or one who didn't take the word, "NO!" as an answer... I am a warrior and will never cower away from standing up TO them, and FOR myself!!!

I am helping famILY not get railroaded by a corrupt corporation. I will use all my legal expertise and make damn sure this company gets what is coming to them. I cannot stand how big companies think they can simply stomp all over the little guy, and get away with it. Nah. If people have support one another, this would not be the way of our world. Everyone is accountable for their own actions... as individuals and as corporations!!!

I am currently dealing with my health; which is kinda a shitshow, if you haven't noticed. I have decided to walk away from most of my specialists because frankly, I am sick of them not communicating with each other, and when one specialist is completely contradicting what the other is saying... I end up just going back to my family doctor, who seems to be the ONLY one who has be spot on, thus far, and knows my body best. He also listens to me, not pushing medications on; respects that I don't like meds and for me to me on the miminal amount as possible for my conditions.

I DO have some interesting, but beautiful things unfolding in my life.... things I rather keep to myself, because it's only meant for me. If that makes sense.

So, as you can see, my life is full. I have a lot of battles ahead, but I know I am not alone. I hope you all stay safe. Stay warm. Be well. Be blessed. Most of all, Be LOVED!!!

~ Phoenix

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