Wednesday Already???

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Dear Lovies. I am not in the mood to speak of sweet nothings. It's just not that kind of day. I am just going to dive right into this huge pool of bullshit, and state, for once and for all, the truth. 

You don't want to believe me... THERE IS THE FKN DOOR!!! 

I have never given you a reason to doubt me, nor my intentions; but you doubt my loyalty?? My respect?? My honour???

Nah... this shit won't fly!!!

I take pride in my level of loyalty and honour. I have a depth of respect that isn't really existent these days; which sadly bothers my soul. I miss the ol school ways. I don't miss the pettiness. I am too old for this shit; I was too old for it when I was in school. We are grown ass adults, and this shouldn't even be a thing these days... BUT HERE WE ARE...

I am going to state this clearly and plainly in ENGLISH, so no one can misconstrued what I am saying...

My heart is full, My soul is at peace. My life is chaotic, but without who I've got, I may not be as strong as I am; there is only one person in my life who has stayed 100% solid, and if ever questioned... that's where my loyalty and love lies.

I don't need to hear people accusing me of not wanting to be with them because there's another person in my life. Jealousy is such a wasted emotion, and not one I will entertain EVER!!! Can't handle that??? You know where the door is and know that it only swings one way.... don't let it hit your ass on the way out!!!!

I don't need an ex creeping back into my life, simply to throw a pity party because he can't get over the fact that I chose another man over in FIVE (5) years ago!!! I don't do CHILDISH behaviour... and I am not entertaining it, nor you!!!

Don't ever question my loyalty. Don't ever question my love. Don't ever question my level of respect and honour. I have been questioned one too many times.

I have been more than patient with circumstances and situations. People want to fault me for losing faith, then so be it; but be damn sure, that is the only fault here!!! I am DONE explaining myself.

Deuces

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