When Worlds Collide

Good Evening my Lovies. I hope you had a peaceful, yet fun, Saturday. I can say that today has been more of a "lay around" kind of day. Most of the day was rearranging apartment and waiting around for satellite guy to arrive. 

I am not complaining, but the anxiety I get when strangers (moreso men than women) come into my home is sooooo high, I almost can't function.

I am having some "interesting" things happening around me lately. I am kind of overwhelmed from the things I am learning. Don't worry, they are not bad, they are more like two completely different worlds... NO, more like UNIVERSES, colliding!!!

I have been talking a lot more to my sister, and I am learning fascinating things, that otherwise I may have never knew. The six degrees of separation thing is very real; it's kind of wild how all through my youth, I was literally in the same places as them, knew the same people, even delivered the newspaper to my own grandfather's home; having NO clue that he was my maternal grandfather. 

(That revelation threw me for a massive loop).

Another one was to find out my paternal side were regulars at a restaurant my friend's family owned and ran; apparently they were very close with the owners. It's crazy how small the world really is.

One last thing was what I thought was the biggest difference between my bio dad and me, would be how I ended up growing up (I'm not going to divulge any of that today), and the fact that he was a police officer. My life and his career would have been extremely different, (NO I am not saying I am a murderer or some dumb shyt like that)... 

I am just saying I thought we have very different views on life, and I actually pre-judged the man, based on his job. This is something I normally don't do, but I did it to my own flesh and blood. Funny, how things happen like that!!!

It IS crazy how these universes collided. I am looking forward to seeing how they will intertwine; regardless if others are accepting of it or not. Biological family can deny proof that i right in front of their faces, even after 2 tests that prove it to be true... that's on them, it simply means they lose out on meeting and getting to know one awesome, but quirky chick who would have rocked for them.

It is what it is!!!

~ Phoenix

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