It Can't Rain All the Time ~ Eric Draven (The Crow 1994)

 

My dear Lovies. I know I'm babbling about various issues today, my mind is restless... as you all know, I've had a rough day yesterday and am still trying to process that scar which has been painfully torn open. It only made it obvious that I need to rebuild the wall surrounding my heart... no longer with bricks, but with titanium.

People often talk about building boundaries... I deeply fight to break down walls that life's circumstance has forced me to build, with every brick it threw at me. I was learning that it's okay to have boundaries... they only teach those around us to use the doors instead. 

I fear the events of this weekend, has shut any opening I have ever made; believing that people ever cared. Unfortunately, one of the people I thought loved me, claims this weakness I felt from what my parents had said to me, and my reaction is me being a "LITTLE BITCH", along with some other delightful, ill-informed words to say to me.

Call it being a Sagittarius. Call it repetitive behaviour. Call it the typical pattern. Call it my natural reflex, but I am no longer tolerating being dismissed and disrespected by my (adopted or biological) family anymore. Take me or leave me. I am not going to falter nor change to appease anyone's perception of me.... if people can't get with that... I will show them the door, and reassure them the door only swings one way. It's time I get to enjoy my life and be with the people who love me with the same unconditional love I have for them. You may not agree, but I find comfortable with this decision. I really need to thank my person for reminding me of this, in my hour of need!!! Your wisdom and guidance is something I cherish.

MLLH&R

~ Phoenix

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