Just Do It!!!

 

Page 65 of 365. 

Good Morning Lovies. I hope you have a Happy Thor's Day!!! I kinda chickened out of my appointment with my kidney specialist today. 

Mainly because it was supposed to be really bad weather.

(I mean, schools were canceled already last night too). 

I also didn't want to go because I am not ready to face another surgery on either one of my kidneys at this time.

Today is the kind of day that I would be dancing in the rain. It's not exactly warm out, but we've been getting rain for the past couple days and there's almost nothing I enjoy more :)

I want to just be in the moment. Mentally, the past few weeks have been taking their toll, and last night, I've decided I need to fluff some of the BS into the background and start enjoying what is currently good in my life.

I got to video chat with my youngest granddaughter the other day. I can't believe how big she is getting. My heart swells with pride when I get to see my baby (well, he's not a baby, he's 25 years old), get to be a daddy. It's incredible to see how the next generation is, at least they are somewhat following ol school traditions; which I couldn't be happier about.

This weekend, we have a dinner for my adopted mother's 83rd birthday... HOLY FUCK!!! It is always a busy and stressful meal to get together for. There are usually about 25 of us, and I am the only one who flat out speaks my truth... especially about religion and life in general. I don't cover my tattoos or anything like that; but I still respect them enough to not use foul language or swear when I am in their presence. It's simply a respect thing. 

I try to keep the topic neutral, as religion is a HUGE battle within the family. My brother, his wife and their kids are not religious at all. I am a witch (plain and simple) and the rest are ultra Christians. I can honestly say, it's not the atheists or pagans or witch that are the ones trying to convince people to convert and we keep our views to ourselves; but it is the Christians who feel it is their responsibility to constantly ram their views onto us. 

Why is that???

I am perfectly fine going to this place they deem "hell" because for one, I don't believe in it and two, if allthe hoity toity holier than thou people are headed on the stairway... I'd much rather be on the highway... so them trying to convince people to join them and acting the way they do... it really is NOT a good selling point. We can barely stand them here on this earthly plane, would we want to spend eternity with them (according to their religious views)???

Anyways, this is my first blurb of the day. I simply want to FEEL ALIVE today and just be ME!!! Stay safe. Stay warm. Be well. Be blessed. Most of all, Be LOVED!!!

~ Phoenix

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