Just WTF Do You Think You Are???

 

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Good Morning Lovies. 

Happy Sunday Funday! It looks like it's a beautiful day out there; I hope you get out and enjoy it. Dare, I say that Spring is officially here??? 

(I don't want to piss off Mother Nature since we usually get shit weather on Easter weekend... so SHHHH!!!)

I was really going to let this shyt slide, but I wouldn't be who I am if I remained silent; and what kind of self respect would I have if I didn't address the fkn ignorance of this person towards me.

So the other night I had said "nite" to my person, and was settling in for the night; already disheartened by the lack of "love", or recognition from my own parents when some messages popped up on my FB messenger. (Let's just be thankful that I already had this person on MUTE because they tend to get rude asf with me). 

This was what was left...

"Yo"  "Hey", 20 minutes later, he says, "Dirt bag"... then proceeds to try to call me through messenger 2 hours later. (1:21 in the morning)

Now, you're probably wondering why I even have this person on my messenger in the first place... the answer is simple. He is the father of one of my children. I have tried to keep the lines of communication open because he has his own demons and I am usually the one he turns to when he is in a moment of crisis. 

I respected the fact that we share a child (an adult child, with kids of their own now), so I wanted to help him stay the healthiest he could be for my child and their family; BUT I also have come to the conclusion over the past while that I am NOT responsible for other people's actions.

I have my own life. I have my own relationship and future to enjoy. I think being so empathic has been very destructive to me at times. That being said, I am grateful for the people who really love me, who have shown me that I do NOT have to rescue everyone and I most definitely do NOT have to take the abuse or disrespect, no matter who the person is to me.

It is a life lesson... One I do struggle with from time to time; but those messages just reaffirmed to me that I made the right decision of letting go of a lot of people who don't deserve my love (or me even caring about them and their well-being). Honestly dude, get bent!!! Deuces.

End of rant.

~ Phoenix

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