Chapter 5 Page 2

 

Page 122 of 365.

Good Morning Lovies. I hope the day is treating you well. When y'all clock out, the weekend begins... may you enjoy all your plans you made. 

I will happily enjoy my bubble, which has become extremely peaceful lately.

I know I don't share every detail of my life on social media... I don't even share every detail with people I know in real life. 

I tend to keep most things to myself, or those within my circle... those who "sit at my table", sort of deal!!! 

I think there is only one person who knows every detail of my life, and I am good with that!!! Just sitting here thinking about all the bullshit I am dealing with, both my adopted family and biological maternal family, and I sit in peace. I know, I have days where I let it get to me, but most days... I am okay with not having them in my life. Toxic is toxic, no matter how you're connected to them. 

(That being said, I know, I am toxic to others as well. I hope one day that will change, but I am not holding my breathe, nor putting my life on hold in hopes that they will see that their best interests was all I wanted for them).

I am on my 50th trip around the sun, and I can say for the FIRST time ever... I am at peace with all that is around me. I have love in my life; a love that loves me as much as I love them... accepts me flaws and all... Trust me, that is no easy feat. 

I am going to end this blurb with a reminder of something I said about this year... 2024 was the year of FAFO (Fuck Around. Find Out.) and 2025 was the year of RETRIBUTION. Remember how I said people tend to forget that "retribution" doesn't just mean repaying for past misdeeds... it also means reaping the rewards of your good deeds too. 

AND THAT, MY FRIENDS, IS EXACTLY WHERE I AM!!!

Stay safe. Stay cool/warm. Be well. Be blessed. Most of all, Be LOVED.

~ Phoenix

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