In Time....

Hey y'all. Sorry, I am stuck in my head, this may be an "all over the place" sort of blurb.

I know this one is going to be a bit of a touchy subject; but please know this is coming from a good space...

I am hearing A LOT, how people are really wanting a partner/significant other (SO). 

I am watching all too often people jumping at whatever is "served up to them", feeling they'd rather have anyone over what they truly deserve. 

Doing this is only leading to deeper heartache. TRUST, I am speaking from personal experience.

I've had a few relationships in my life, and if I look at them chronologically, you can really see where I was at mentally. I won't say they were necessarily mistakes BUT I can certainly say each one was a lesson!!! It wasn't until my last relationhip (which ended in the beginning of 2023), that I had made a vow to myself I would work on me, giving it at LEAST 13 months before I even thought about dating anyone again. I wanted to focus on healing because I didn't want whomever I was going to get together with be punished for the sins of my of another man..

I took a roadtrip, vanished for a few months... I have a bad habit of running when I need space and peace. I took myself away from everything that was toxic; but I also removed everything that was right in my life. I knew I had to come back. I came home to a battle field; but once I reclaimed my space and dealt with some of my health issues... I am here. 

The universe, fate, or whatever you believe in, has opened my eyes.  I was not searching for anything nor anyone. I am finally at peace, happy (holy shyt!!! I never thought I could use that word when referring to me)... and I feel my love matched on every level..

As you can see, when it comes to finding your person (your purple)... it will come in time. You cannot rush fate; the best you can do, is to continue on your path and know that someone, somewhere is there for you. Please, I beg you, stop settling. Straighten your crowns and walk tall... never accept less than you deserve!!!

~ Phoenix

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