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Good afternoon Lovies. It's a dreary day outside; I still hope you are all having a good one.

I sat here last night, getting kinda stuck in there... Yah, one of those kind of nights. I don't feel it was such a bad thing... it was more of a recognition of personal growth, and being at peace with certain things and people.

I used to be such a bitter bitch, and would take a lot of things very personal. I couldn't wait for karma to do its thang..

What life has truly taught me is things fall into place when they are meant to.

I am trying to accept that my parents are simply who they are, and it is okay if I don't stay in regular contact with them. The battle has been long enough. My dad is sick, my mother isn't doing great... I struggle with myconscience about that, so I will TRY to stay in some form of contact; but I am going to listen to someone who knows me (probably better than I know myself)... I can't keep trying to get them to love me. 

What is the word for doing the same thing repeatedly and expecting a different result??? Oh yah... INSANITY!!!

The other thing that has changed is I could care less about those in my rearview. I mean, I'd have a good laugh if karma DID step in; but I am not trying to put negativity in the universe. Besides, I had to have all those experiences and lessons, in order to be where I am now.

La Vita e Bella

~ Phoenix

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