May You Have the Day You Deserve

 

Page 145 of 365.

Good Day Lovies. I hope those who love hot weather are enjoying today. I don't like the heat. I am 100% a winter (late autumn) baby. 

Snow gives me joy... especially when it is freshly falling, and I am out in the country. It's like a blanket of serenity, silencing the outside world. PEACEFUL!!! Today, it is "rude" outside... LOL I think it's around 34 degrees celcius (with the humidex). Gross!!!

It has been a quiet day. I am doing a bit of reflecting on some events that just happened; kinda kicking myself in the ass over me having a big heart and once again getting the short end of the stick. I am not going to reveal names, but if they read this blog, they'll know I am speaking about them...

I had felt guilty about a situation people were jammed in, and I did what I always do; I help in every way I can to make sure they don't suffer. I helped, in seeking justice for them too... then they did me dirty!!! I kept the situation in the back of my mind, conflicted on how I was going to deal with it; but in the end, the trash took itself out.

The lies and secrecy started... the blatant disrespect towards me was uncalled for. Let's just say, the straw that broke the camel's back was when they promised something to me, and the very next day, I find out what they had given to me... they gave to friends of theirs.

Remember how I say... I love, Love LOVE... until I don't!!!??? Yah, that was what happend here.

I began really questioning everything I had been fighting for them. It dawned on me, that the same words he had used for that legal situation, he used again for the next situation... pretty much verbatim. I was so angry, at first; but then I realized the lies he is spewing are only going to hurt him... so I washed my hands clean of everything involving them. 

Sometimes when they say, "You can't teach an old dog, new tricks", it's the truth. I don't seek retribution. I don't feel bitter. I did what was necessary to keep peace in my bubble (NO, self-love, self-respect is NOT selfish). I believe and trust in the universe... all I can say is this...

MAY YOU HAVE THE DAY & LIFE YOU DESERVE!!!

Blessing, or curse. So mote it be. Stay safe. Stay cool. Be well. Be blessed. Most of all, Be LOVED!!!

~ Phoenix

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