If You Could Walk a Mile...

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Good afternoon Lovies... rather, Good Evening!!! Today has been a lil cooler, so absolutely more bearable. 

I spent most of the day in bed, as my body fails me... unfortunately that leads me to wander deep in my head, going to places I don't like traveling to.

Just when I began to feel like I don't need to worry about things, that fkn little voice in my head reminds me of all the rotten trickery I've already endured. Trust me, when I say, it's not a place I wish for anyone... even my worst enemy.

No one warns you that healthy love would feel like a threat, not because anything is wrong BUT because nothing is. When you are used to surviving in chaos, peace feels like a set up. Now is the time for the forever life lesson of how to UNLEARN the art of self sabotaging... something I have perfected in my 50 trips around the sun!!!

I sometimes feel like I am stepping into familiar territory, but the terrain has completely changed; if that makes sense?!! I am desperately trying not to bring old luggage on the new trip, and so far I  have been succeeding, except for today... today, I  feel like a failure. Frankly, it SUCKS!!!

Today, is just a day for the lucid ramblings of the somewhat insane mind. I hope you all had a great Friday. Stay safe. Stay cool. Be well. Be blessed. Most of all, Be LOVED!!!

~ Phoenix

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