Chapter Eight Page One

 

Page 213 of 365.

Good Afternoon Lovies. I hope you had a great Friyay... and look forward to a good (long) weekend. The weather here, is still extremely rude!!! 

I had a rough week; my damn air conditioner died a few days ago. I am NOT someone who can handle heat at all... I am a Canadian chick; through and through!!!

I had medical this week, and I can say, I am NOT disappointed with the appt, as it went like I expected it. My levels with my diabetes are more level and continue to be in the right direction but my IIH and my migraines have been through the roof with this weather.

I did celebrate a little bit though. I was watching something on TV, and a commercial came on for "Back-to-school" stuff and I was soooooooo excited. Not that I have any children in school, although I have grandchildren that go... It's just the sure sign that this hot, sweaty, swamp ass weather is coming to an end (hopefully). I mean, it would be traditionally, but the past few years, we have been subjected to some very unusual weather, like still wearing shorts at the end of November; where by my birthday, we used to have snow in the ground.

I guess, all in all, I don't have much to complain about. I have my health. I have my love. (For the first time in my life, there is nothing I need to question). I am blessed with a roof over my head, food in my belly, bills are paid. I have people who are around to take care of me, make sure I am medically safe; never alone in crisis. I don't have to worry about people being snakes in disguise as friends because I closed my door on pretty much everyone who has shown their colours or who are deceptive to those I care about the most.

I think cutting the cord from family that have just been painful reminders of my youth, and adulthood was one of the best things I could have done... I have learned from those who I DO call famILY that I don't have to tolerate disrespect, and I definitely don't have to love people just because they are "family"... if that makes sense.

People who know me, know I am in a much better headspace than I have been in years. I smile more. I am more at peace. My shoulders feel a lot lighter. I no longer feel that I am responsible for other people's lives and actions.

Anyways, I think that is pretty much everything I needed to say here; for this blurb. Stay safe. Stay cool. Be well. Be blessed. Most of all, Be LOVED!!!!

~ Phoenix

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